flow15 Posted March 1, 2011 Posted March 1, 2011 So I've basically been NC for about a month, however I don't think I'm being totally strict with myself. When my ex broke up with me I did the embarrassing and typical mistakes of crying to him, practically begging him to change his mind and convincing him it would work.. A month later I feel totally ashamed and wish I could take it all back. He hasn't contacted me since and I haven't contacted him either. I think I've reached a point where I am angry with him, I don't want him back but I want to regain the pride I lost during the break up. After I did all the crying, etc I went NC, I deleted his number, deleted him from fb, deleted his mutual friends so that I couldn't see pics of him, removed anything that reminded me of him... except one thing! I haven't removed him from MSN messenger and ever since the break up I've logged on about once a week, keeping the pathway open hoping he wil be online so that he can contact me and so that I can finally be able to ignore him and regain the pride and power that I lost when I cried to him etc. But I have a problem, he hasn't contacted me even though he is online. I don't want him to think I am online because I'm hoping he'll contact me to get back together. I want him to think I have deleted him from my life so that he can miss me, but if he sees me online he won't think that. So... what should I do? Continue logging in every now and then so that he sees me online and hope that he'll contact me so that I can ignore him? Or should I just delete him? but if i delete him randomly now a month later, he might wonder why I've been going online every now and then for a month and then all of a sudden I've dissappeared. I know this may seem really pathetic lol! But I really want him to contact me just so I can ignore it and regain the power after all the hurt he caused me
Bluebelle38 Posted March 1, 2011 Posted March 1, 2011 Honey, stop thinking about what he thinks. Delete him for you and start moving on with your life. I know it hurts like hell but you have to let go and let him know you have moved on. Then and only then will he be wondering what you are up to and maybe reach out to you. You have to help yourself here and focusing on him and what he thinks is keeping you in this awful limbo. Be strong adn forget about the way you behaved after the break-up. Most people lose it a bit.... you owe him no apology so don't even bother trying to do it. It will look desperate now xx
Layzie89 Posted March 1, 2011 Posted March 1, 2011 Delete and block him from your MSN. If he really wanted to contact you I'm sure he has your number to text or call.
Author flow15 Posted March 2, 2011 Author Posted March 2, 2011 OMG! Guys this is so weird... its like we have a connection. I was about to delete him and he contacted me. Someone tell me what it means... he sent me a link to a James Morisson song called 'one last chance'. I feel sick... what the hell does it mean??? The lyrics go like this: In my life I don't mean much to anyone I've lost my way can't go back anymore Once I had everything now it's gone Don't tell me again coz I've heard it all before Some people say that I'm not worth it I've made mistakes but nobody's perfect Guess I'll give it a try I've got one last chance to get myself together I can't lose no more time it's now or never and I try to remember who I used to be I've got one more chance to get myself together The time has come for me to change again I can't carry on like this, I will lose my friends - don't say that you have given up on me Just give me the time and speace to heal my head Some people say that I'm not worth it I've made mistakes but nobody's perfect Guess I'll give it a try I've got one last chance to get myself together I can't lose no more time it's now or never and I try to remember who I used to be I've got one more chance to get myself together I don't wanna be misunderstood I've got to take this chance and make it into something good Some people say that I'm not worth it I've made mistakes but nobody's perfect Guess I'll give it a try I've got one last chance to get myself together I can't lose no more time it's now or never and I try to remember who I used to be I've got one more chance to get myself together I got one last chance. Well you know it's all I need. Is one last chance,
hopeful4someday Posted March 2, 2011 Posted March 2, 2011 It's like rubbing salt into your own emotional wounds to log on and see the person and be rejected over and over again. If you go NC, do just that -- delete it and move on.
Chi townD Posted March 2, 2011 Posted March 2, 2011 Yeah, not a fan of that song. You know why? IT'S JUST A SONG! Look, I can see that you're hurting over this guy. You say you want to feel impowered, to be able to ignore him? Then do it, cut him out of your life. Heal and move on. Do you really want revenge? The best way to do that is lead a happy and successful life. That is the ultimate revenge. Sooner or later he'll realize he missed out. His loss.....
depplover_1980 Posted March 2, 2011 Posted March 2, 2011 Look inside, look inside your tiny mind Then look a bit harder 'Cause we're so uninspired, so sick and tired Of all the hatred you harbor So you say it's not okay to be gay Well, I think you're just evil You're just some racist who can't tie my laces Your point of view is medieval **** you, **** you very, very much 'Cause we hate what you do And we hate your whole crew So please don't stay in touch **** you, **** you very, very much 'Cause your words don't translate And it's getting quite late So please don't stay in touch Do you get, do you get a little kick Out of being small minded? You want to be like your father It's approval you're after Well, that's not how you find it Do you, do you really enjoy Living a life that's so hateful? 'Cause there's a hole where your soul should be You're losing control a bit And it's really distasteful **** you, **** you very, very much 'Cause we hate what you do And we hate your whole crew So please don't stay in touch **** you, **** you very, very much 'Cause your words don't translate And it's getting quite late So please don't stay in touch **** you, **** you, **** you **** you, **** you, **** you **** you You say you think we need to go to war Well, you're already in one 'Cause it's people like you that need to get slew No one wants your opinion **** you, **** you very, very much 'Cause we hate what you do And we hate your whole crew So please don't stay in touch **** you, **** you very, very much 'Cause your words don't translate And it's getting quite late So please don't stay in touch **** you, **** you, **** you **** you, **** you, **** you :lmao:
hopeful4someday Posted March 2, 2011 Posted March 2, 2011 Look inside, look inside your tiny mind Then look a bit harder 'Cause we're so uninspired, so sick and tired Of all the hatred you harbor So you say it's not okay to be gay Well, I think you're just evil You're just some racist who can't tie my laces Your point of view is medieval **** you, **** you very, very much 'Cause we hate what you do And we hate your whole crew So please don't stay in touch **** you, **** you very, very much 'Cause your words don't translate And it's getting quite late So please don't stay in touch Do you get, do you get a little kick Out of being small minded? You want to be like your father It's approval you're after Well, that's not how you find it Do you, do you really enjoy Living a life that's so hateful? 'Cause there's a hole where your soul should be You're losing control a bit And it's really distasteful **** you, **** you very, very much 'Cause we hate what you do And we hate your whole crew So please don't stay in touch **** you, **** you very, very much 'Cause your words don't translate And it's getting quite late So please don't stay in touch **** you, **** you, **** you **** you, **** you, **** you **** you You say you think we need to go to war Well, you're already in one 'Cause it's people like you that need to get slew No one wants your opinion **** you, **** you very, very much 'Cause we hate what you do And we hate your whole crew So please don't stay in touch **** you, **** you very, very much 'Cause your words don't translate And it's getting quite late So please don't stay in touch **** you, **** you, **** you **** you, **** you, **** you :lmao: Haha, I actually set that song as my ringtone for an ex once... it helped me remember not to answer his calls.
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