don diego 78 Posted March 1, 2011 Posted March 1, 2011 My ex and I have been separated for about a year and a half now. She moved out on me and I had discovered she was speaking with an ex right before she did that. We attempted reconciliation but she backed out of couples counseling. I was caught trying to look through her phone records after she refused to show me them and she kicked me out of her place. She has always promised me nothing physical ever happened with said ex. Flash forward a year and the other day she called me up tearfully saying she missed our family. Mind you that this was immediately after me going the "silent treatment" route after about a year of me pursuing her and constantly being denied. Basically after a month of silence from me she broke down and said the usual textbook stuff..."I didn't realize what I had till it was gone." blah blah blah. It's funny because she really had me considering again...UNTIL. Today I was on a internet forum that we both used to be on and I hadn't been on in ages. Someone had posted an interesting article about how it's the little things in love relationships that we remember. I began getting nostalgic, thinking of her of course...lo and behold I come across her response which chimed in agreement and said something to the effect of "oh yeah, the standout moments are not getting flowers at work (something i used to do too) but being carried gently and lovingly to bed when you fall asleep on the couch and waking up tucked in." guess what? she wasn't talking about me, and guess what? she was writing this literally 4 days before calling me crying. if i can be reading something like that and thinking of her and she can be reading it and thinking of someone else...I dunno...the way I see it this has no fixing. i love my son and wish it could be but...love has to be 50/50. any thoughts?
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