Owz600 Posted March 1, 2011 Posted March 1, 2011 (edited) This isn't a new thing, for past 2 - 3 years I have felt down but since braking up with my ex 2 months ago it's more noticeable, it did add to why we broke up. I have never felt 'normal' always felt as if something is wrong with me. I have no sense of reality, I am not easily motivated it takes something quite major to get me to do something. I could be happy for a day but that's it then I can easily go back into a down mode. My mind is constantly thinking and usually it's bad things such as I am not of value or other people are going places in their lives while mine feels like it's at standstill.I don't get excited either or seem to care about anything. I do now and then get thoughts of taking my life... I don't think I would seriously do it but maybe in a rash action I would. I know if I had a gun I would most likely have done it as it's so quick. I am 20, since I was 17 I have felt down. My uncle is depressed and has been for years, he is getting better now he is taking medication. Past 3 years my life has just floated by and not taken any career direction due to lack of motivation, uncertainty and no sense of reality... I kinda feel like is this all has life to offer? I should also mention that sometimes I take T5 pills, they was first bought as an experiment for weight loss but they make you happy, they include amphetamine. I took them for 2 weeks then stopped because I couldn't sleep, but when I feel really down I sometimes take them to give me energy and make me happy. I am much more confident and happy when I have had one, it reminds me of who I once was. I don't know how to go about seeking help... I don't think I am bad enough to go see a doctor, he or she would most likely think I am not severe enough. I dunno.. Edited March 1, 2011 by Owz600
starryeyed12 Posted March 1, 2011 Posted March 1, 2011 I think you should seek therapy. It never hurts to at least talk to someone when you find yourself in the pattern of thinking which you described. Only good will come of it.
starryeyed12 Posted March 1, 2011 Posted March 1, 2011 To expand on that, I just saw a therapist for the first time today. I was nervous, but I felt a lot better after speaking with him. I was never sure if I was at a point where I actually needed help, or if I should tough it out on my own. I finally decided that I have toughed it out long enough, why not try some help.
Author Owz600 Posted March 1, 2011 Author Posted March 1, 2011 Yea some days I am ok and others I am really down, like today I was ok but very tired. I been thinking about seeking a therapist, I think it would help but I am really nervous about it... What kind of things did they ask you? just out of interest?
Datura Posted March 1, 2011 Posted March 1, 2011 There is no severity scale that disqualifies people from entering counseling. If you are struggling that reason enough to seek guidance. You are self medicating to deal with emotions! That doesn't suggest "severe" to you? Not only is depression a real possibility in your case, so is derealization. This "standstill" will continue if negative thoughts resume along with the preoccupation with those who you deem more successful. So stop with the comparisons - everyone goes at their own pace. Goal setting may prove beneficial since you struggle with lack of motivation. Small goals, mind you.
Author Owz600 Posted March 2, 2011 Author Posted March 2, 2011 Thank you Datura, I am becoming more focused on my goals. I want to study Business/Marketing at University this September, I would not have been able to tell you what I would have wanted to study at University a year ago. I am so indecisive lately I find it hard to make a decision that I can stick by 100%, I also ask reassurance for things I usually already know the answer too, I don't know why I do this... I think it may be down to lack of confidence with my own decisions. I am getting better slowly but maybe it would be good if I saw a therapist.
skydiveaddict Posted March 2, 2011 Posted March 2, 2011 I am getting better slowly but maybe it would be good if I saw a therapist. I agree with this. But I would also visit your regular Doc just to see if you might need meds as well.
starryeyed12 Posted March 2, 2011 Posted March 2, 2011 Yea some days I am ok and others I am really down, like today I was ok but very tired. I been thinking about seeking a therapist, I think it would help but I am really nervous about it... What kind of things did they ask you? just out of interest? Actually, to correct myself, it was a psychiatrist that I saw yesterday. I was really nervous too! I have dealt with my tendencies and moods for so long that I sort of felt like this is just me, he's going to think I'm silly for acting so dramatic about such petty issues. When I sat down I felt a little uncomfortable, thinking seriously, why am I here? He asked me the same thing. What brings you here today? How have you been feeling? Tell me about your relationship with your parents, sister, brother. Any other relationships? Any pre-existing medical conditions in your immediate family or grandparents? And then more personalized questions as I told my story. He mostly listened, took notes, and asked questions. I didn’t feel like he was judging me or thought I was silly. He wasn’t taken aback by any of the things I was feeling or had done. At the end, he gave me a prescription to stabilize my moods and help with concentration. He also had me book another apt. with the therapist who works with him. I felt a lot better afterward. It felt good because I was finally taking a step to heal myself and feel happier and more stable. It’s not a permanent solution for everything, but a work in progress. I highly suggest that you book an appointment with someone, psychiatrist or therapist. You wouldn’t be on LS asking these questions if you didn’t think you needed to. As I said before, it will only lead to good things.
whichwayisup Posted March 4, 2011 Posted March 4, 2011 You've been through alot of emotional turmoil in the past bunch of months, plus new changes in your life, job wise and making big decisions. Try to eat right, stay away from fried and junk food, eat more salads, fruits, and fibres. Drink tons of water! It's so important to keep yourself hydrated. If you can, buy some multivitamins and also buy vitamin D. It helps with low feelings of depression. Exercise! Brisk walking for half an hour (atleast) every day can improve how you feel overall. That, and yoga. (not sure if you're into that type of thing, so you can buy a beginners DVD, 20 mins long..Yoga helps keep the mind/sould/body balanced and at peace. Trust me! It will make you feel better.
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