I cant tell if im coping or not, is coming on here all the time a sign im not...

[roman_pavluchenko]

i know it probably seems stupid, we only dated for 2 months, but i had liked her for like 6 months before that so it really did hurt me when she broke up with me for being too clingy,i actually thought i loved her. I tried to convice her i was about to change because i realised it, and offered to give her space before she did it so i was kind of devastated. I started to look on the positive side of things, she offered friendship, although i talked to her on facebook and she ignored me...but in a group setting with all our friends she would talk to me. Ive realised that i have more closer friends than i expected, that there are people who care about me more than i though, that i'll now be able to talk to other girls at parties, i can get maggot with my mates without feeling guilty about doing something stupid, im starting up sport again and going to the gym etc. My emotions have been on and off lately though, 3 weeks today, trying to go no contact but i still see her within the group, and i doubt it'l work because she told me she thought about our relationship to the point where she couldnt eat and felt sick, makes things a little harder...i start to think if i just ask her out for coffee and talk to her calmly and collected, without seeming desperate like i did last time we can work something out, then i think hey, she should contact me, and ditch the idea. I ultimately think im moving on...but its difficult to tell, when i see her in person i get this sinking feeling, i cant stare her in the face when she speaks to me, if something happens, such as her friend telling me she still thinks about me a lot and shes hurt from dumping me, i get this spark of hope and think i can maybe salvage it. I've been going out with mates, and keeping myself occupied, but just occasionally i go into a bad place, and have to talk to her best friend and see if i can get anything out of her which may lead to me getting my girl back. I know for sure that i'm a lot better than i was a few weeks ago - i was thinking about smoking...i dont know why, i thought it would just make me feel better, she was all i thought about and i started typing **** i could say to her in word for hours, i managed to delete it though, thinking it was stupid. The main thing thats getting me is i keep coming to relationship sites like this, reading stories, posting about my feelings etc...is this a sign that im having trouble moving on, will it slowly get better, should i avoid relationship sites and seeking advice, will it make the healing faster?