Blind Posted February 20, 2011 Posted February 20, 2011 I've posted my story here several times, basically it's been over a year now since my horrific breakup with my ex-boyfriend. He is the very definition of a tool. A disgusting cheater, a coward, and narcissistic a**hole. He was my first boyfriend, and he had no guilt at all for the things he did to me. We were together for 5 years, but made it official a little over a year ago (so technically, we weren't together for that long.) It took a while for me to finally move on since I had no closure (because he's a tool, he never returned any of my things back when we broke up and used threats to control me) and he chose the easy way out. Even though I was the dumper, I felt like the dumpee the way he treated me. Since late November I've been doing so much better, NO LAPSES, and I was able to accept that I will never have closure and that there will be someone out there who will love me. And then 2 days ago, I received a notification of a new email from one of my older email accounts. I checked it, and it was an automatic email of him inviting me to join Facebook. Out of stupidity and curiosity, I looked him up and saw that one his exes is on his friends list (which I found out he cheated on her with) and this woman THAT he cheated on his ex with AND me. And that woman has been flirting and commenting on his pictures. That poor and stupid ex, especially since I told her about it, NEVER in a million years would I want him on my Facebook if I knew what he did to me. My blood is boiling just typing this, I feel the urge to just send him a message and tell him how much of a coward he is and how much he hurt me. Luckily he's halfway across the country so its much easier for me. But I suddenly have this need to look at his profile, which is very reminiscent of the times when I started to feel he was cheating on me. I don't want to give him the time of the world, he is not worth it, and I need to remind myself that if he can runaway from confronting us, then I can do the same. I want him to experience how Valentines would feel like alone, have birthdays no one make you feel special, a cold and chilly Christmas, and everything to remind him why all the things he did wasn't worthy. Please advice me to keep control, how to stay strong. I don't care about him, I care about me, and I don't want to feel sorry for myself whose loved someone for 5 years and ended up like this. I deserve so much better.r
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