My girlfriend dumped me, i was starting to move on, but she may still have feelings..

[turokturok5]

sorry if this is long, but i really need help. I liked her for a very long time, and finally started getting to know her after 6 months, she was the nicest person i had ever met and was really pretty. I starting dating her on leavers, and we had our first kiss under the stars on the foreshore, i couldnt of thought of a better way to start it off. I was her first ever boyfriend, and we were both 17, although i turned 18 1 month in. We had some really good times together, but a few little problems, she wouldnt kiss me in front of anyone, because she was too embarrassed, but i accepted that because i really cared about her. I use to worry a lot about losing her, because i thought she was too good for me, i think it kind of annoyed her but when she explained that i wouldnt lose her and that she was happy i stopped worrying. Whenever i would organise things, it would be together because i just liked being with her, but she didnt organise things so i brought it up with her, and she said she would start to organise things to do, exept it would always be with our group of friends, which kind of annoyed me. On australia day i wanted to see her, she called me to ask what was going on, and i said that we would have a gathering at my house, but she wouldnt come over unless the girls came, so i invited them, but doubted they would come. My mate was with me when we were on the phone, and she wanted to speak to him so i put him on, then she hung up afterwards, so i texted her asking her to call back but she never did. I didnt think the girls would come, so i got drunk with my mates, and they did end up coming but that was fine because she didnt mind me drinking, but when she did arrive, it was about 2 hours into the night and she hadnt said a word to me, and then she ended up just leaving with a few friends. I texted her saying why did you leave without talking to me, she ended up coming back, but still didnt say a word to me. I know i could've approached her and talked, but i always had to initiate the conversation so i walked off hoping she would come find me so we could talk, she did, but she got angry saying it made her look bad, and that the texts pissed her off. I felt really bad that i made her feel this way, and i think the alcohol had something to do with it so i bought her some flowers and apologized and she said we could forget it. The following sunday we were meant to catch up with the group, us guys were at my house for 45 minutes waiting for them to arrive so i called her asking where she was, turns out 1 of the girls had a rough time and they decided to have a girls night without telling us, it kind of pissed me off, and i was saying i would come see her because we had been having troubles, but she got pissed off at me and just said have a guys night. I was feeling pretty down for a few days, untill we organised that i go to her house, i was happy, and had my mind set on fixing what was wrong, but she said we need to talk. She told me that she felt differently after what happened the following week, and that i wasnt the person she thought i was, but i was still the sweetest and nicest guy she had ever met and she still wanted to be friends, but she couldnt go back to the way things were. I went to leave her house but she asked me to stay and talk, so i stayed at her house and we talked for 2 hours as if nothing had happened. Her friend told me that she didnt know if she had made the right descision, and she seemed lost, so i went and saw her and told her that i never meant to upset her, and that i was the same person she fell for, i realised what i had done wrong and went there that day to fix it but she wasnt interested. Its been 3 weeks since ive had a decent conversation with her, but ive seen her a few times with our group. I got rid of everything she ever gave me, and deleted her from facebook, when her friend told me she was serious about being friends and that she was having a hard time because she

"couldnt get me out of her head" I was ready to move on, but this gave me hope that we could fix things, part of me wants her back because she was really special to me and i care about her, but the other part of me wants to forget about her < in doing this thought i doubt i could be friends with her as the only way i can move on is to shut her out of my life. We have uni in a few weeks, i know it'l be good for us, as we can forget about eachother and meet new people, but i dont want her to forget about me, and i dont want to forget about her, i want to show her that im the person she fell for and that i dont need her to be around 24.7, because she thought i was too clingy. What do i do? also, we only dated for 2 months, and i would see her once a week, and it was usually with the group, so i would try to be around her as much as i could, this annoyed her and she said it wasnt just about us in the group.

Edited February 20, 2011 by turokturok5