Pathfinder Posted February 18, 2011 Share Posted February 18, 2011 Well l am so stressed out. It's my senior in high school and there is so much going on that it makes my head spin. There is so much homework its ridicules. I do it but do bad on it cause i don't do it they way the teacher wants me to. They are all handing out projects that are do all in the same week. I'm doing my senior paper on my cousins abuse and he wants to have me help him write a book about it. I want to but I'm not sure I want to know EVERYTHING that has happen to him so im really iffy on that but i want to help him do it cause he deserves to have his story out there. We are going to use the half the money we raise from it to donate to awareness of child abuse. Then the last 50% of it gets split in half to go to our college funds. I'm really excited to be writing a book but the topic makes me want to cry and I just want to help him. After we get done with it I am going to need MAJOR therapy. Also, my boyfriend of 1 year and 10 months today, wants to get married this fall. Don't get me wrong I am in love with this man. He is my everything and I would do anything for him cause he is just that amazing guy that every girl out there wants but not enough of him exists and I love him with all my being! I'm 17 going on 18 in June and hes 19 going on 20 in July and he is in his first year of college and i havent started yet. I mean my life hasn't even started yet! I do want to marry him yea, but just not so soon. And what if something happens when i go to college? We will be going to the same school and I'm moving into an apartment or i might live on campus. He wants me to move in with him but i kinda want to get some place for myself you know? With a girl friend and just live a little. Cause if i moved in with him then it would be weird cause I hate being alone and if he was out doing something and didn't take me with him (not that i give a crud if he goes out as long as i kno where he is and who hes with just so i kno hes safe) i would hate staying up waiting for him to come home. Neither one of us has a job right now cause we both quit due to stupid bosses giving us crappy hours. Were both looking but i just don't want to depend on a man so early in my life. My mama raised me to be a very independent woman like her. And it would so disappoint her if i moved in with him so soon in my life. My mom had me when she was 20 so she has NEVER lived alone and she wants me to have the freedom to do with my life how i please and not have to take care/depend on some one. I love them both. They are the only people i would literally die for. Well i guess you can include my sister too the little stinker. haha I would hate to dissapoint either one of them. When i talked to my mama about this she said she knows I'm not ready for it cause she knows me. I hate to say shes right. I love him very much but i want my own house for a while. AGG!! Haha i just needed a good rant Link to post Share on other sites
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