PiOver2 Posted February 16, 2011 Posted February 16, 2011 Well i'll TRY make the background story as short as i can with still having enough detail. met my ex at college spring of 08 that night i had an instant attraction to her. i got close with her friend and talked to her friend a lot. my ex had a bf at the time but we would flirt while we drank nothing more. the following fall i had a place of my own, off campus, she use to come hang out with me all the time. that went on for a while and i was hooking up with many other girls bc she had her bf. saint pattys day of 09 she left my house after dirnking to go with her friends. about an hour later she calls me to tell her to come meet her. we come back to my house and soon as we get to my room she starts kissing me. we have inter course and she leaves the next morning. we didnt talk so much after that until the summer when i started to call her and we talked on the phone for like an hour each time. that summer i told her i missed her and i couldnt wait for next semester to see her again. fall 09 comes along and we are hanging out all the time and messing around again. she asks me out twice and i said no but the third time i said yes. we start dating for a little then break up bc she was acting shady. i found out a couple days later that i had gotten her pregnant. i told her i'd stick by her side no matter what her decision was. we continued to hang out but not as bf/gf and continued to mess around. after the procedure we got back together. we got into a huge argument one night bc she had her friends come over and she never showed up to my place until like 45mins after, it annoyed me a bit. i had friends from home over so i was trying my best to let it go. after drinking for a while she pulls me a side to talk about and i told her twice i didnt want to talk about it and to let it go. so finally we got up to my room and a huge argument breaks lose. she went back downstairs to party and i went to bed. the next morning we wake up and talk about it. she made me promise to never let that happen again and i hesitated and then agreed. two weeks later we got into another argument bc some guy texted her at 1230am she opened her phone looked at it and put her phone back down without closing it. at this point i said eff it i will sleep on it and talk about it in the morning. that morning we get into an argument and i lose my temper again. we broke up for good this time the day before valentines day. we talked for a bit after we broke up, i wanted to be with her and she didnt want to get back together. the day before saint pattys day of 2010 she comes over and we went out and layed under the stars and talked about things. she slept over and we had sex again. the following day i cut classes with her and we went on a long walk, we sat down and she layed in my chest and we just cuddled up for a bit. she ended up sleeping over again that night and yet again we had sex. the following morning we are talking about things and shes getting rdy to go so we hug eachother good bye and she bites my shoulder almost as hard as she can so i squuzed her ass bc it hurt. i asked "why did you do that?" and she replied "i wanted to leave my mark." after that we only hung out a couple more times b4 things got ugly, she became more distant and i didnt like that. we argued a few times then she told me she hated me and never wanted to talk to me again. that summer on my birthday she texted me and said happy birthday...we started texting back and forth she asked me "do you have anyone that tickles your fancy?" with a quick text message after that saying "i always wanted to say that" i disregarded the question and brought up that i wanted to sit down and have a coffee with her so i could see if these feeling i had for her were real or if it was just left over from the relationship. she told me she wouldnt bc she was in a commited relationship and it wouldnt be fair to him. we didnt talk at all after that. this past semester i texted her twice to try and get together for a drink to squash this awkwardness and be friends again. no resopnse either time. i seen her on campus and i have waved to her and she waved back. i have ran into her at the bar a couple times, the one time i was with a girl and me and my ex made eye contact so she grabbed her new bf by the hand and drug him out of the bar. i seen her recently, and i was hanging out with the same girl as the night at the bar, we made eye contact and she just walked right past me. i been having dreams about her and things being civil again. now i cant get the idea of talking to her out of my mind. i cant concentrate in school or doing homework. i want to talk to her and tell her i dont like the idea we arent friend since we were good friend before we started dating. i was a complete jerk to her and disrespected her but once we broke up i put myself into therapy, quit smoking pot, completely changed myself and how i handle situations. i do still get that feeling of being attracted to her when i see her just like i did the first night i met her. i'll take just being friends with her bc i want to she her i have changed and grew up. but i have no idea if its even a good idea to try and talk to her next time i see her around campus. so much for making it short, sorry.
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