Gala Posted February 15, 2011 Posted February 15, 2011 (edited) I am referring to the post-Valentine's Day emotional black hole... I had a personal disappointment a couple of weeks ago...and have been trying to metabolize it. I managed my emotions over the weekend, and was even OK for most of yesterday. I bought and mailed valentines to a friend's little girl, and to a couple of older friends of my family. After years of practice, I know the drill. Even keel, even keel. Stay busy. Have something to do if you can. I worked out at the gym earlyish last night, and was home before 8. Ate dinner - sushi, vegetables, a little wine and chocolate. Watched a movie I'd rented. The movie, unfortunately, was darker than I'd expected. As I went to bed, I felt my state taking a dive. I had promised myself I would take in my car this morning. This is never fun...and right now there's a recurring problem. I got a cab from my mechanic to the car rental place, and when I realized I was hardly raising my voice to the cab driver I knew I was in bad shape. I'd reserved a Mustang at the rental car place as incentive, and even this didn't raise my spirits much (though the dashboard is pretty cool-looking). I understand all the reasons that Valentine's Day is commercial and problematic and cliched. But nevertheless it is also a day to recognize that we all have romantic sentiments...and it really sucks when those are trampled. I finally let loose with some crying about an hour ago...the kind that feels like it won't stop, and gives you a headache. I hate devoting intense emotion to a situation that doesn't deserve it. Is anyone else out there finding themselves whapped with a Valentine's hangover? Leftover feelings after this holiday? Edited February 15, 2011 by Gala Copy error, clarification
Anela Posted February 16, 2011 Posted February 16, 2011 I finally let loose with some crying about an hour ago...the kind that feels like it won't stop, and gives you a headache. I hate devoting intense emotion to a situation that doesn't deserve it. Is anyone else out there finding themselves whapped with a Valentine's hangover? Leftover feelings after this holiday? Me. I had more than one thing happen when I was already extremely depressed, and trying to keep my chin up (in late 2009), and I've just had a bad time of it ever since. It makes it even worse, when I think of the time I've lost to depression - what a huge waste of time even five minutes of crying would be, over something I've already cried over and want to forget, but the grouping of events about killed me and my self-esteem. Getting to the point: Yesterday, I woke up feeling unwell, and then, after smiling and thinking how sweet certain couples were, and how lucky they were to have each other, I thought about my own situation, and just curled up on the bed for a quiet cry - avoiding people as much as possible, for several hours, because I got very angry afterwards. I wish I could let the anger/bitterness go (I'm more angry at myself than anyone, but there's more than one person I need to make peace with).
xpaperxcutx Posted February 16, 2011 Posted February 16, 2011 I ate a whole gallon of ice cream and threw it up... does that count?
SmileFace Posted February 16, 2011 Posted February 16, 2011 I ate a whole gallon of ice cream and threw it up... does that count? No, that sounds gross . I ate a danish and threw it back up. Stupid stupid stupid me - for introducing sugar back in my diet in such a high quantity. That was my downfall of Valentine.
Knittress Posted February 16, 2011 Posted February 16, 2011 I didn't even remember when Valentine's Day was until the day before. Then I ignored it. Then suddenly it was the morning-of and I inexplicably felt utterly worthless and ate an entire box of chocolates. It's like the 24 hour flu.
Art_Critic Posted February 16, 2011 Posted February 16, 2011 Hey Gala.. I had a root canal yesterday at 4pm, is that as bad ? When I was single I would feel blue on V's Day as well some times and I would do "me" therapy too.. normally though it meant going out on the water and opening up the power boat full throttle for a half hour instead of eating ice cream.. Hang in there.. the blues will go away.. Just a story.. The last time I rented a car I drove down a street in Detroit that had an 1/4 mile of orange cones in the middle of the road.. I just eased the car over and ran over about 100 of the orange cones.. It was fun..I always wanted to do something like that.. Next time you rent a 'stang you need to go out in the country and open it up... that will put some hair on your chest
Whatshername Posted February 16, 2011 Posted February 16, 2011 I cried myself to sleep, and am getting over a cold, so it was.blow/cry blow. But, at least I did not call him after rehashing in my brain what I felt I needed to say to him. I woke up feeling better, but drained and stuffy. I have slept horribly all week. I think a part f me hoped(knowing he wouldnt) he would appear/call/email/send a card.....apologize... V Day was not the best of holidays for me. I know it won't be this way forever. I did make and eat chocolate cake with my mom's yummy white homemade frosting and a glass of milk. yum. more tonight....but I haven't eaten any candy and am Crossfitting.. woohoo
Author Gala Posted February 16, 2011 Author Posted February 16, 2011 Everyone - thanks for sharing. I felt better after posting, and yes it does help to have a Mustang for a couple of days...even zooming down some of the bigger boulevards where I live is a modest adventure. Art Critic - best wishes for a speedy recovery from your root canal!
Purplehaze Posted February 16, 2011 Posted February 16, 2011 Wow everyone on here sounds so...depressing:(
mustofbeen Posted February 16, 2011 Posted February 16, 2011 I didn't do anything on Valentines day except went to work, it was fine with me, I really didn't feel the need to make the time and go on a date. I feel great, slowly making a progress, gaining my weight back, getting in better shape, been riding a lot since the temps went up, life is great, cause I am making it great, you have to work for everything, and have fun at the same time, if you can do both, you won't have to worry about a thing, all the good things will come to you at the right time.
Anela Posted February 16, 2011 Posted February 16, 2011 (edited) Wow everyone on here sounds so...depressing:( I'm fine today, but thanks. I think the most depressing post here, is the one for escort services... (that I've just reported). everyone else shared about their bad day. I hope everyone else feels better soon (if you're still feeling low). ♥ Edited February 16, 2011 by Anela
LeaningIntoTheMuse Posted March 12, 2011 Posted March 12, 2011 (edited) Every day is a black hole. Valentine's Day is no different. Edited March 12, 2011 by LeaningIntoTheMuse
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