Drop kicked Posted February 15, 2011 Posted February 15, 2011 Take it for what it's worth, this is my side of obviously a relationship story. My fiance, (I will call her Sag here for obvious reasons, Sag is in no way a derogatory term, just happends to be her birth sign) or rather what had been my fiance, started dating nearly 3 years ago and now we have a daughter together that is nearly 2 years ago. Everything started great, and I don't mean great, things honestly couldn't have been better short of hitting the lottery. After a few months Sag decided to move in with me with what was at the time her nearly 2 year old daughter from a previous relationship, along with the 2 children that I had from a previous marriage making us a happy family of 3, soon to be 4 at the time. This continued to go well for some time. Some bickering popped up occasionally, nothing that I had considered major but something that really neeeded to be discussed in a more positive way. I will be completely honest, I started my share of it but in no way was I the only instigator. I don't like admitting that but I did it and am trying to make amends for that still. I'm a bit hazy on the dates, I always have been, but several months later Sag moved out and went back down south near where she lived previously. By this time our daughter had been born and in the beginning I got a hard time about being able to see my daughter and being able to spend weekends with my daughter at my place. Several more months had gone by and after dropping my daughter off from a weekend visit, Sag and I got to sit around talking and reminising so to speak and eventually started dating again. Several more months passed and once again Sag decided to move back up north and moved in with me once again. The move was a little rough and caused some more bickering, but I still thoguht everything was all well. Again, I couldn't have been happier that Sag was again back living with me, I found myself once again excited to come home from work and she was equally excited to see me after a long day. Time goes by and more and more bickering, mostly about raising the kids mine, hers and ours. One of her biggest issues was, not the only issue, 4 kids in our place all weekend long was a bit stressfull for her. I would try to take all 3 kids out for a few hours occasioanlly on the weekend to give her some time alone and less stressful I figured, leaving her home with just our youngest daughter. Long story somewhat shorter, just after the New Year, the bickering turned into a major blow out and I left what was my home, taking my 2 children with me. I've tried to keep in touch with her, keeping my conversations strictIy about the girls and making sure everything was ok with her and the girls, if she needed help with anyting jsut to let me know. I have made numerous attempts to reach out to her, trying to talk to her, about us, seeing if there was any way to work on our relationship and get things back to the happier times that we equally shared. Each of my attempts has either been totally ignored or on the seldom occasion only answered with "I don't know what's going on now". Since I've left the house, I've made every attempt to do right by her, helping out wherever I can with whatever I can, and I feel that everything right I am trying to do is just going unnoticed, and nothing I do makes a dent in her at all. I'm honestly at a loos what to do. I love Sag incredibly I love our daughter and I love her little girl just as much as I do my own children. I'm looking for any way to get her to realize or remember what we were, and how much I do care and do love her, and wish she would just realize that and decide to make another go at our relationship. Or, and not at all what I want, I want her to decide once and for all, if she wants to have a sincere relationship with me once again, or if she would rather just move on without me. After nearly 3 years of an on again off again relationship, I think I'm entitled to atleast that much right? I realize that I am just talking out loud to a blank audience so to speak, but sometimes input from a total stranger, without ties to either side my have the best input.
JasonRules Posted February 15, 2011 Posted February 15, 2011 Sounds like you're venting. Do you have a question for us?
Author Drop kicked Posted February 16, 2011 Author Posted February 16, 2011 Yeah, I suppose alot of it is venting. But what do I do? I hate playing games, or even being perceived as playing games. I cannot exactly do the "no contact" thing because I want to know how the girls are doing, and honestly, I still want to know at the very least she is doing ok. Her Facebook profile still has us as "engaged" and she is still wearing her engagment ring, but won't see me or even talk to me. I'd rather her be happy, whether it is with me or without.
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