hesh86 Posted February 8, 2011 Posted February 8, 2011 I have been dating an amazing girl for just over one week now. Two days ago, she came over to my place to talk to my parents online (she doesn't have internet at home). After we finished talking, we flirted a little and she started kissing me. This was not the first time. She started kissing me on the mouth just a few days into the relationship. I like to have her on my lap when we cuddle, so she seated herself on my lap and we continued to make out. During the course of it, it started to get steamy and I felt up her skirt - no I did not touch her private part, but did touch the side of her buttock. My girlfriend is a little shy about her body and at the same time does not want to get into a physical relationship until marriage, which I respect. Thinking about this, I stopped what I was doing and apologized to her and told her not to let me do that again. She said it was okay. No, I did not want to go all the way with her, but I did want to see more skin at least (not even naked). She told me some day I would be able to, but that she is a little old-fashioned. So, I stopped myself. A few min later, she started kissing me even more and this time, her shirt had an opening and i put my hand there and felt her bare breast. In a weaker moment immediately after this, I tried to lift her top off before realizing what was happening and stopped myself once more. I apologized profusely. This time she got up and said she needed to think more about me. I got the shock of my life, because I felt like I had molested her, which was not my intention. It was only to make her feel more comfortable with her body, but I overdid it. She hugged me soon after and said it was okay and that she is fine and not freaking out or anything - I know she is an amazing person. I did not respond to her hug, though and since then, I have not gone close to her out of guilt. Yesterday I texted her again apologizing for the stupid thing I did. She said that we were both at fault and went too far too fast. She said she is not mad or disappointed at me. We just need to take it slow. But, she is not talking all that much to me. I kind of feel, she doesn't have the same respect or trust for me anymore even though she says she is not mad or disappointed at me. We are still very much together, but it has become awkward now. She asked me how I was doing yesterday and I said I was okay, but I am not. I feel very guilty. What do I do? Do I wait for her to make the next move? Do I apologize again by doing something more romantic? I care for her a lot. I was told by two friends of mine yesterday that I was a good person. I wanted to tell them what I did the other day so that they would take it back. But I am not a bad person either, I know it. I had a moment of weakness. I don't want my gf to think I am weak and that I will repeat it again, bcoz I know I will not. I broke my promise to her (that I will try something physical only when she is ready), and am afraid to promise anything else. But I told her I will become the person she wants me to be. Or try to at least. What is the next step? Thank you
utterer of lies Posted February 8, 2011 Posted February 8, 2011 What do I do? Do I wait for her to make the next move? Do I apologize again by doing something more romantic? I care for her a lot. I was told by two friends of mine yesterday that I was a good person. I wanted to tell them what I did the other day so that they would take it back. But I am not a bad person either, I know it. I had a moment of weakness. I don't want my gf to think I am weak and that I will repeat it again, bcoz I know I will not. I broke my promise to her (that I will try something physical only when she is ready), and am afraid to promise anything else. But I told her I will become the person she wants me to be. Or try to at least. What is the next step? You sound pretty brainwashed. What you did is perfectly normal and natural and nothing to feel bad about. Stop apologizing to her for your actions and stop rethinking everything twice. Do what you feel like, she will tell you to stop when you go to far. It seems to me she wants it as much as you, so....enjoy.
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