kayl3e Posted February 7, 2011 Posted February 7, 2011 Well, it feels good to talk more about this with an unbiased source. My boyfriend and I met at a party approximately three years ago. I automatically fell in love with him. First person for me to actually date in a really long time. (Been through a done of terrible dates which when it led to the sex part, that was it.) Anyways, he seemed generally interested until I soon found out that there was another girl he was also seeing at the same time as me. Three weeks into our relationship, (he is also from Germany, which made things a bit more difficult) he told me that he didn't know he could do this because he was leaving, which I later found out was because he was thinking about exclusively dating this other girl. Well, I cried all night in his bed in the hopes that he might date me. Well, it turns out he decided to date me instead, but stayed in contact with the other girl as well. (just writing this sounds ridiculous) Anyways, we spent my second semester sophomore year of college together along with that whole summer, but I started getting suspicious during those times because he would get all these mysterious phone calls, etc, turns out from this one girl, and he had to return to Germany for a year and was planning on meeting with her as she was going to study abroad the first semester. And she wrote to him that she had hoped that they could have a relationship together. Instead of trusting him, I found checked his fb when he was in the bathroom and found all this out. When I questioned him about it, he said she was just a friend. I was upset, but I asked that they just not hang out unless I was there. He was not happy, but agreed. Meanwhile, we staid in touch over skype, and the second semester, I stuided in London so that I could be near him. Two weeks of being there, I used his skype to contact my dad. Her name popped up, and I read the convos. All this crap about how he wished he had chosen her as a girlfriend, etc. I went ballistic and slapped his face. After that, I made him block her and was this psycho jealous girlfriend. Then, that's when our relationship went even more down hill. I should mention that there were good times, but I lost a lot of trust in him after. Also, after I went back to London, I made out with a guy in a club, but then I told him. I did it because I was so angry. When he came back to America in the summer, we had tried to have things settle down and were planning on living together. However, he was not happy and he kept crying, saying that he missed Germany and his brother. (He is an identical twin.) Worst of all, he would hardly ever have sex with me anymore. I didn't understand it. I tried to make him happy, but he just stopped caring. He stopped trying. The last two weeks of our relationship, I stopped trying too. I joined this dating website just for fun. I wanted to feel pretty again. I got a bunch of hits, which isn't a big deal because I am a girl and, etc. But then I actually met up with a guy, so that was a bigger deal. But I cried to him and told him my situation, and he hugged me, telling me that if i was this unhappy, something must be wrong, and I didn't deserve it. The next day, right before Halloween, my boyfriend and I officially went on a break, and he had planned to leave with his buddies for the night. The following night he came home and accused me of making out with one of his friends when I was drunk. I couldn't believe it. I told him that I didn't because if I had, I would have told him. As much as neither of us didn't trust each other, I did believe in honesty, and the event he was talking about had happened half a year ago! I freaked out, and texted on my phone his friends should come get him. My name was on the lease, and he hadn't even paid rent here. But the moment they came, I knew I had made a mistake. (even though he had said that he just wanted to live here as friends instead of girlfriend/boyfriend.) One of his friends called me a c***! I begged him to stay then. I said there was a mistake. But he wouldn't listen. Then the other guy came over to stay with me because I was freaking out so much, I thought I might have to go to the hospital. Ever since then, the new guy, who is now my boyfriend, hangs out with me all the time, but I really want my old boyfriend back. I care for my new boyfriend, but I don't love him, and I just don't know what I'm doing with myself. I feel very depressed, and like all this time, I have been tricked. Also, my ex boyfriend is hanging out again with that girl who he said was just a friend, and now my trust non-existent. Anyone have any advice. Sorry, I know this is very long.
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