Disillusioned Posted February 6, 2011 Posted February 6, 2011 On the whole, my life is going pretty well... I'm cleaning up my property, staying out of debt, my 2nd job is starting to bring in money, and my buddy wants to teach me how to play an instrument so I can go to gigs with him, which is really weird because he's the one who's always complaining about being broke. It feels like I'm fighting from a position of strength, thinking in terms of making gains rather than cutting losses. Not exactly a Mafia don, but getting there. But all of this has had a ratchet effect on my feelings toward romance. The better off I become in life, the more I want to be the fish that can't be caught. I guess it just comes from a desire to give back the indifference and abuse that was dished out to me since my teen years... to deeply and permanently hurt the women who take an interest in me nowadays as punishment for the wrongs done by a few of them in my past. Not only can this fish not be caught, his flesh is poison.
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