TheThinker Posted February 2, 2011 Posted February 2, 2011 Ok well for the last few days i have been fairly positive, i have been trying to move on and do stuff as hard as it is. I have kept as little contact as i can and i know that it has effected her as she has told me herself that she was feeling very lonely and its given her time to think what a mess her life is etc HOWEVER Her friend arrived back from travelling in thailand yesterday and she seemed very chirpy and happy when i dropped my daughter off. That seemt o have affected the loneliness factor and she has her best friend back to concentrate her energys on (so not the best thing for me) So since i dropped my daughter off I have been feeling pretty poor in regards to everything. Got that horrible gut feeling back and not feeling too great about no contact today. She did ask me if i was distancing myself the other day and i said no. I am not sure why, i think it was because i have to maintain contact for my daughter and i dont want things to be bad between us. But i am ... and she has clearly realised this. So know i dont know what to do about that whole situation. Any suggestions ?? What do people do when they have these sort of days ??
oldSOULe Posted February 2, 2011 Posted February 2, 2011 Obviously i cant provide to much constructive advice, im almost a month in and everyday is still a bad day. The novelty of her friend coming back probably wont last forever and her mind will come back to those nagging doubts and feelings. Stay strong mate, your doing good.
Author TheThinker Posted February 2, 2011 Author Posted February 2, 2011 Obviously i cant provide to much constructive advice, im almost a month in and everyday is still a bad day. The novelty of her friend coming back probably wont last forever and her mind will come back to those nagging doubts and feelings. Stay strong mate, your doing good. I am trying mate - i really am ... I cant try any harder than i am. I had to contact her again today to talk about my daughter and when i am having her at the weekend. Not something i wanted to do but it had to be done ... to make matters worse we got knowhere with it because i dont know. My friends have plans for my birthday, i am quite open to doing anything as long as i am not on my own but i dont want to drink - thats my only thing because i will do something stupid. I am all for having my daughter all the time if i could but i need to be fair and let my ex see her as well. She is an amazing mother. So at the minute i am seeing her 4 times a week which is amazing, i am spending quality time with her - something in hindsight i should have done more often when i was in a relationship. Its my birthday on monday so technically my birthday weekend - i told her i wasnt fussed by it all, i didnt want any presents and that to me it is just an insignificant day in the calendar. She wrote back "to me its not just a day in the calendar" ... I really do feel like that though. I dont really want anything from anyone.
oldSOULe Posted February 2, 2011 Posted February 2, 2011 I know the feeling of not wanting anything from anyone, just the one thing you cant have. Ive even completely lost interest in the hobbies i had, they just seem so pointless now
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