brneyedgrl Posted January 26, 2011 Posted January 26, 2011 It's been 10 days of NC even though we still live together and it's actually made me stronger and realize the healing process might be easier than I thought. Then tonight hit, I miss him and I always will. I'm angry for what he's done to us and I don't understand it. 6 years just gone like that. How am I going to be ok? I haven't truly been alone in 6 years, who am I going to hold in the middle of the night when I have a bad dream? Who am I going to kiss goodbye first thing in the morning on my way out the door? Who am I going to enjoy date night with on Monday nights? Who is going to be there to cuddle on the couch with after a long day? I hate this, I thought I was fine.
Stilicho Posted January 26, 2011 Posted January 26, 2011 keep your head up, and maintain NC. each day is a different story, but let me tell you something. im on day 19 NC, and as of now i feel great, especially how i felt compared to just a week ago, let alone 10 days ago. It must be hard living with him, but NC is truly the way to go. Obviously me emotions still sway, but she occupies less space in my mind every day. And another piece of advice id like to give is to kep smiling, even if it doesnt reflect how you feel, because it eventually will. Also, letting him see you down and effected will only hurt you, and certainly wont change him.
IfiKnewThen Posted January 26, 2011 Posted January 26, 2011 you have to think of healing like an illness or sickness. you have a fever it does down then could rise again...you have a cough..you go out ..you have a relapse. the heart and emotions take time to heal. ride the waves of emotions. and remember too thoughts provoke feelings. so think on positive uplifting new beginning things, as best as you can. and when your sad...know youre not alone. i know youre alone in your own suffering..within your being. but not unigue to the world and YOU CAN AND WILL get through this! Pray hard too. believe too. take the higher powers hand. i dont know what else to do. thats how i try. i am still going through those emotions..too. i have a very different circumstance but i know longing..and grieving. but there is hope too and youre doing good. just hang in there and reach out when you need too. it helps to live in the day too. to not think what about tomorrow. you are not promised tomorrow. we only really live in the day. so baby step it that way. till you make it.
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