I am healed Posted January 24, 2011 Posted January 24, 2011 (edited) Hi guys, it's been a year and few months and a another relationship since breaking up with the person I first loved. I want you all to know that the heart heals and that although you seem caught in an abyss of pain, things do get better. The rate at which healing occurs though, in my opinion, is dependent on the person. I can't tell you that I don't at times still miss her, or that all the memories are gone from my brain. But what I can tell you is that 99% of the intensity has gone away. The funny thing however, is that the majority of my healing occured in the last 5 months or so. Up until that point I wasn't healing at all in fact things felt just as bad as they did on the first day. Why you ask me? Because I stayed in contact with her, saw her often, spent my time thinking about her, in other words I continued the same old habits which I had during the relationship although it was over now. I was living in denial to put it short. She still cares, maybe just maybe, etc, it just feels good while she's around that's why I am doing this. Well I learned the hardway after 8 months that it was impossible for me to keep re-opening the wound and I shut it down, and walked away probably forever. Since then however I have made tremendous leaps in healing and I find that the path which helped me heal the most was inspiration. My path in life was always to be a physician, so I funneled all of my energy into this and now soon I'll start on my path to medical school. The new task which I focused on allowed me the freedom and the desire to stop focusing on my past and gave me the motivation to move forward. The past didn't inspire me to move forward, but moving forward inspired me to let go of my past. I think this is the message I want to send out to all my fellow LSers and others who are viewing this thread. Hold on now through the pain realize that it does get better with time and that nobody dies from heartbreak. In fact, if we learn from it, it is one of the most life changing and personality strengthening events which can occur in our lives. I guess I mean to say pain in life is inevitable, it truly is. There is no way to avoid it but if we allow it and work with it and let it pass through us and into the past then we grow and become something beautiful. namaste. Edited January 24, 2011 by I am healed
broken-and-lost Posted January 24, 2011 Posted January 24, 2011 thanks for posting m8 and returning to share your story of recovery
Author I am healed Posted January 24, 2011 Author Posted January 24, 2011 I'm glad I just want to help.
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