I always thought I knew how to get over someone, but how do I?

[21precious]

Hi everyone, firstly i'm new here. My boyfriend broke up with me in October and I honestly thought i'd be nearly over him by now, I guess not. He broke up with me because he thought that I was going to break up with him, (I did, in my mind, feel like we were spending too much time together and I guess that's why he felt I was going to break up with him. I mainly wanted to work on it)

 

I've never really felt like this before. Usually after a break up, yeah i'm hurt, but I move on quickly. This time it's not the case. He wanted to remain friends with me, but I quickly turned down his offer. I started NC straight away, and straight away he was contacting me. I said "You don't want to be with me" and he replied "You know that isn't true. I do want to be with you more than anything but I don't like how you were thinking about us breaking up!" We rarely argued before this, but ever since the split we've done nothing but argue. I continued NC but he STILL would call/text me. He would say he missed me, still loved me and said maybe that we could "be together again in the future" He said he needed time to think about whether he wanted to get back together with me, which I gave him, but I felt like he was starting to take the p*ss. I asked whether he wanted me to wait for him and he said yes I do, but i'm not going to tell you to.

 

He'd ask me if he could collect his clothes from my house, but then when I told him a time he could come, he wouldn't reply, and still hasn't been to collect them. The last time I heard from him was over Christmas, he contacted me to say merry christmas etc but that's all. I miss him SO much and I feel like i've done everything possible to get him back but it hasn't worked, so yeah i'm sticking with NC, but what else can I do to get over him? I see him 2-3 times a week at college so it's difficult. Does anyone have any suggestions on what to do?

[z00m25]

going to the gym is helping me a little bit. if i dont go i cant sleep at night so i pretty much have to force myself even though i have 0 motivation whatsoever.