Fern Posted January 18, 2011 Posted January 18, 2011 I've been feeling like I might have turned a corner this past few days. Feeling like I might actually be properly 'on the mend'. Thinking about him less and having zero pain or anxiety when he does pop into my head. I think I might have finally accepted that it's over and he's not coming back and actually - that's OK. I'm not missing him anymore, I'm actually realising that I LIKE not having to deal with his moods and his aggro. Being single is very stress free. I've been making plans for the Spring and Summer and looking forward to having some fun. I'm footloose and fancy free and thee's a whole world out there to be enjoyed. I really hope this isn't a temporary thing. It seemed to just happen almost overnight. I had that one bad day after reading 'He's Scared, She's Scared' where I OBSESSED something rotten on Saturday - and then BAM - I'm feeling like I'm practically over him by tuesday. How does that work? Am I kidding myself? Will I be back to feeling like crap this weekend? Don't worry - I'm not about to break NC or anything, besides the fact I don't entirely trust this new mood, I don't care enough to bother. I've lived without him for nearly 6 months now. I know I don't need him in my life. It's good feeling like this. Really good. How do I hold on to it?
BlindRage Posted January 18, 2011 Posted January 18, 2011 Good for you Fern! I'm proud of you. I hope I get to that point soon. Even if it is temporary embrace the feelings you feel right now, cling to them actually!
D78 Posted January 18, 2011 Posted January 18, 2011 That's awesome, Fern. I hope the good feelings continue. If not, they will be back soon.
brneyedgrl Posted January 18, 2011 Posted January 18, 2011 That's great news! It's a welcome sign of what's to come for the rest of us too. How do you hold on to it? Keep doing what you're doing, because obviously it's working!
stopthemadness Posted January 18, 2011 Posted January 18, 2011 Good for you!! Cant wait tell i feel the same way.I see a therapist, I go to church am really trying too. Its better then it was But i wish i was where you are.......
swfc_77 Posted January 18, 2011 Posted January 18, 2011 i feel like that slightly, the bad days are still there but not as often as they use to be. maybe 1-2 days a week i get a sulk on.
curiousnycgirl Posted January 18, 2011 Posted January 18, 2011 I don't want to jinx you either, but I do want to live vicariously through you - so please tell me all about the plans you are making and the fabulous and wonderful things you are doing - I am so very happy for you and want to hear ALL about it!!!! So c'mon girl DISH!!!!
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