Kansas Posted January 17, 2011 Posted January 17, 2011 I'm so hurt and angry at my ex. I'm only just shy of 3 weeks NC but know that this is it. Each time before he broke NC and stupidly I believed that things would be different and took him back each time, only for him to keep walking out. The frustrating part is that I'm soooo hurt by all of this and want him to come crawling back however, I know that I could never take him back or trust him again, ever after this. It sounds really cruel and twisted but I hurt so much and (maybe this is the anger speaking) I just want him to come crawling back so that for once, I can be the one to say **** you, I don't want you back. Anyone else in this boat?
Rose T Posted January 17, 2011 Posted January 17, 2011 Me!! My cheating ex asked for a second chance today - six weeks after the break-up, on day 23 of NC. I told him no. Wasn't even nasty about it, couldn't find the heart to be mean - I think killing someone with kindness is probably a revenge in itself, though. Be strong Kansas - remember these feelings when he does drag his sorry ass back to you. I get the feeling you won't have heard the last from him but it's not always as much fun as it sounds.
Stilicho Posted January 17, 2011 Posted January 17, 2011 i feel the same way, but i agree with rose, i think it wont be as fun as wed think, remember, we loved them with everything we had at one point. but, they ruined it, so they deserve it in the end.
Author Kansas Posted January 17, 2011 Author Posted January 17, 2011 Nah, I'm sure I've heard the last of him finally. After 2 years of being there for him and helping him work through his ****, he just dumped my ass and told me that we weren't healthy any more. ****er. After I help him through his **** and he proliferates about how he has become who he is because of me and how everything good in his life he has me to thank for - that's the thank you I get. Sorry, I just needed to vent. I'd have no problem kicking him in the teeth.
Rose T Posted January 17, 2011 Posted January 17, 2011 I'd have no problem kicking him in the teeth. LOL! Can I borrow you for when my ex comes crawling back again? I'd love to see that crocodile smile in pieces all over the floor!! I think a bit of anger's good. I'm hoping to wake up with a scowl tomorrow instead of being all mopey.
stopthemadness Posted January 18, 2011 Posted January 18, 2011 Yes!! me too.I just telling smone I want him to want me but I know I dont want him back. I think its just the rejection talking. We are hurt cause they dont want us. But like anything else, in time this too shall pass. I cant wait tell the day i can post on here and say. Am soo over it....
lovesparis Posted January 18, 2011 Posted January 18, 2011 i go back and forth wanting him to come back so i can tell him to pound salt and wanting him to come back so we can start over.
Stilicho Posted January 18, 2011 Posted January 18, 2011 loves paris, u said it all! love is a strange thing isnt it? it can give you strength you never thought you had, yet it can reduce you to feeling like nothing....
Racoon Posted January 18, 2011 Posted January 18, 2011 I understand it all. Together on and off for over two years. Broke up since Dec 29, but only on day 5 of No Contact. Had to start over again (damnit). Only difference is I know he wants me. He is just too stubborn and cowardly to admit it. So why am I the one grieving. I hate this. We are all survivors. We are proving it to each other on every post. We are not lying down and dying. We are doing what each of us needs to get strong and if it means venting and learning from each other, so be it. I love this site. You go girls. Be mean, be strong, but most of all lets all get past these jerks. They have proved that they are not worth it. We cant find the right one if we are with or stuck on the old one. There is a bright future. We just have to make it for ourselves.
Fern Posted January 18, 2011 Posted January 18, 2011 I understand it all. Together on and off for over two years. Broke up since Dec 29, but only on day 5 of No Contact. Had to start over again (damnit). Only difference is I know he wants me. He is just too stubborn and cowardly to admit it. So why am I the one grieving. I hate this. We are all survivors. We are proving it to each other on every post. We are not lying down and dying. We are doing what each of us needs to get strong and if it means venting and learning from each other, so be it. I love this site. You go girls. Be mean, be strong, but most of all lets all get past these jerks. They have proved that they are not worth it. We cant find the right one if we are with or stuck on the old one. There is a bright future. We just have to make it for ourselves. That's exactly the right attitude. You're going to be AOK. And sooner than you expect!
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