ewlandon Posted January 17, 2011 Posted January 17, 2011 (edited) Me and my ex broke up after visiting (been in a long distance relationship). When I left it was all "its not goodbye" "this is what we need to be good together in june" "there is no one else for me but you" "i love you" And as soon as i left it was all "its over" "ive moved on" well yesterday after not talking for 4 days I found out (via twit pic) that she already has a new boyfriend. not just a date or a **** but someone she calls her boyfriend. I was being snoopy and i dont think she knows that those pictures are public (her twitter is protected). I texted her saying i couldnt believe that she lied to me and that I didnt understand it and that it was ****ed up etc.... she was really mean to me saying stuff like "youre going to go through your whole life bitter and depressed blaming everyone else that you think has wronged you on yoru condition" I dont have a condition but I think she is referring to depression cause ive been pretty depressed through this whole thing. She told me to lose her phone number and not talk to her again. It still hurts, I gave her so much love and commitment. Looking back though I think she never cared me for like she said she did. I just dont understand why she would be so hurtful and insult me like that when I found out. What is the point in being insulting tos omeone you clearly hurt. I had so much love for her and it was so misplaced. She blames me being depressed and questioning her on this but during my visit she would be sitting at dinner, in the car, at a movie etc texting constantly and I never said anything. When she was out with friends for a night she would ignore my texts the whole night. How is that supposed to make someone feel? Its all clear now though. I just dont get the insults. And i dont understand why people will lie to your face when they know its going to make it that much worse in the end. How do you go from "love" and "i wish you lived with me" etc. etc. to having a new boyfriend within just a few days unless it was all lies. The last thing I said to her was that I wish i had never met her. Pretty immature for a 24 year old but I was hurting. Its time to move on and forget about her i guess. Edited January 17, 2011 by ewlandon
damian Posted January 17, 2011 Posted January 17, 2011 We put them on that pedestal by believing what we want, it's never true though. She isn't the girl you fell in love with, as she only existed in your mind.
Author ewlandon Posted January 17, 2011 Author Posted January 17, 2011 my mind sure is good at playing tricks on me. I think if i learned anything that i need to read the actions as much as, if not more than, believe the words that people say. this action really snapped everything into perspective for me. It made me realize that she really treated me pretty bad. In so many different ways. It actually is making it way easier to get over it. She just wasnt the person i thought she was and she lied to me to get what she wanted. I wont understand it but at least I dont feel like I lost the person I thought I was losing. I dont feel like ive lost anything at all. Im just hurt because someone I loved wasn't who i thought they were and lied to me.
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