fml2160 Posted January 16, 2011 Posted January 16, 2011 Hi, im very upset over what i found out last week, and idk what to do. I have been with this girl kristin since may 2008, we lost our virginities, had our first kiss, everything first together. Last January 2010 I went to college and cheated on her. She found out in august 2010 and had sex with another guy so we could be even. We got back together, i totally regretted what i did, i did it because i was just too horny and too far from her during the semester. Then we broke up on Halloween. I didnt really know why, but she kept giving me cues by saying stuff like "i have someone new already and you would die if you knew who!" when we would argue, but then she would chalk it up to just trying to make me jealous. We started fighting and wouldnt talk for 2 weeks at a time. During this christmas and new years we werent even talking to each other. I finally called her and told her i loved her and would do anything to be with her. She agreed she felt the same way and we started to hang out again, and almost date. She told me she wasnt with anyone while we were broken up. I was so upset and couldnt understand why, but then i figured something out in my head. My ex-best friend was the one that told her i cheated on her, and i thought they must have been together! I accused them both, and they both denied it. days went on and i could just feel it in my heart that they were lieing. I finally made him let me look at his phone, and they were texting! he denied everything still. I imediatly called Kristin and was like "i know you have been with him, he told me" and she admitted it was true. They were talking since september, and she says their first kiss was in december. She only admits to giving him 1 blowjob on new years for the first time. I also found out my ex best friend started shooting up heroin! so i told her about that and she said she would never talk to him again. this totally destroyed me inside. She told me he has been feeding her bull**** that i have been still cheating on her, and thats why she did it. Then she changed the story and said it was because she was mad at me. Idk what to think. She showed me some of her texts and they would hang out regualarly. I bet they were having sex because otherwise they would say "lets go here" or "lets do this". Asking to just "hang out" means sex to me. I kept accusing her of having sex him, and she denies it well. My heart tells me they had sex, but shes a ****ty liar so i believe her. Now shes texting me that shes really horny and wants to have sex with me. I ended up giving in and doing it yesterday. I was thinking "i might as well just bang her until i find a new chick". As soon as i had sex with her, all my eomtions came pouring back, and i started thinking i should forgive her and get back together with her. I told her we should be together and she said she wants to again. Idk if i can do this because my self esteem is hurting so badly inside me now that i cant even speak to women with confidence.
onetoughkitty Posted January 16, 2011 Posted January 16, 2011 Dump her like the trash she is. Funny how you can dump your best friend without a second thought but you gotta think about this? She could have gave you a disease man! Or caused some serious baby daddy trouble. Run far away and just know that over the next hill, there's probably someone better.
lovelorcet Posted January 16, 2011 Posted January 16, 2011 It is very simple, walk away and move on... there is only drama to be had here. Learn from this and try to take a more mature attitude towards relationships in the future.
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