jessy1 Posted January 15, 2011 Posted January 15, 2011 Hey all Im need some encouragement that ive done the right thing. I met and fell in love with this guy. For months we were full out with txting and calling everyday. He would make me feel like the most special girl in the whole world. I was basically 'his girl' (as he would say) but we were never official. He talked to friends about 'us'. He would pull them aside and tell them about how awesome I was and how well we got along and talk to them about 'us'. He called me gorgeous, angel etc and told me I was the only one allowed to have him from now on and that we wouldnt expect me to share him anymore (refering to when we were friends). People called us a couple all the time and would always tell us how cute we were. We were pretty much inseperable. He made my heart do flips every time he looked at me. I was in love! He cuddled and kissed non stop (sigh ) He even sent me a little card saying he loved me. BUT we we were never official. I am so dumb that I just put it down to taking things slow. Anyway to cut a long story short he went off and slept with someone else a week after we first slept together. I was heart broken. He begged me and I came around to speaking terms again. He said I was the only girl he has ever been this close to and he doesnt want to lose it. I felt a bit better until he got drunk and slept with a different girl THAT NIGHT! All my friends told me I had no right to be mad as we weren't official and their advice to me was to be totally normal around him so it looked like I didn't care. So I ignored my instincts to rage and was totally normal with him. Anyway (cutting it very short here) we became inseperable again. I just couldn't make my love for him go away. We went back to cuddling and kissing and he would send me the most cute txts again. Literally 1 week ago I got 'I miss you xxxxx ' made me feel so special. All of a sudden, two days ago, he stopped txting me and came into work and annoucned he had a new gf. I walked into all the boys looking at photos of her and laughing at how hot she was. He came up to me and told me how he is so happy and loves life at the moment. I can not describe how hurt I was. Again everyone told me not to rage as we weren't official and I have no right. But I was so unbelieveably hurt that I just couldnt speak to him. For two days I stayed right out of his way and didnt say a word to him. On the third day he came up and talked to me and I just spoke back as usual as I just cant be rude or cruel to someone faces and am so confused if I even have right to. Anyway (main part here, im summing it up i promise!!) Today I logged on to facebook and couldnt resist to have a look at his profile. It was all these lovey dovey comments from his new gf. My heart broke some more. I noticed his previous ex gf had deleted him so In a moment of empowerment I deleted him off my friends list also. However no I am regreting it and feeling like an absolute baby. Will I look stupid for having deleted him when we were never official? Will I look like a crazy phsyco for doing it? I feel really silly!! As I said I have not raged to him (just ignored him) and when he spoke to me I talked back as normal but I still feel like a little baby for deleting him! And finally how do I cope with the realisation that I probably got played and he just kept me round until he found someone else better. I honestly was in love with this guy and it hurt sooooooooooo bad to think that everything probably wasn't even real. And FINALLY how do I act round him as I have to see him every day!! Please help Im lost
Author jessy1 Posted January 15, 2011 Author Posted January 15, 2011 The horrible thing is he is in all my classes at college and every now and then he comes into my work to buy food off me so I have to see him everyday! The other day he came in purposly with a bunch of mates and showed them pictues of his new gf on his iphone while I was serving him!!
500daysofsummer Posted January 15, 2011 Posted January 15, 2011 what makes you want to be with someone that disrespects you like that? that would make me angry!
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