Sillvena Posted January 12, 2011 Posted January 12, 2011 I felt sexually aroused after my step-dad threatened to smack my bottom with a paddle. I'm nearly 15 and think I'm too old to be paddled, and although it hasn’t happened that often, he thinks nothing of smacking me with it. He’s quite a bit younger than my mum and pretty good looking. However, when my mum met him I despised him for a long time. But recently I’ve been looking at him kinda different. It all sort of exploded a couple of weeks ago and during an argument I was having with my mum, he said if I didn’t put a lid on it, he take me upstairs and paddle my bottom. This sent a shiver right through me, all the way to my groin. I went bright red and could feel myself quivering with excitement and anticipation. I was so turned on, it felt like I’d wet my pants. I managed to walk away without getting smacked but I can’t help wishing he’d gone through with it. I’ve hated the spankings I’ve had from him in the past and I don’t understand what’s changed. I’m so embarrassed and horrified about the feelings. It’s not like I fancy him (I’ve got a boyfriend) that would be weird, but recently I’ve been fantasising about him spanking me with the paddle and doing other sexual things. I think I’ve got a crush on him now. I feel really bad, I can’t talk to my mum about it or even my friends at school, but the feelings won’t go away. What should I do? Will the feelings about him go away? I feel trapped and can't stop thinking about it.
Vesna Posted January 13, 2011 Posted January 13, 2011 He shouldn't have been spanking you in the first place. Apart from the fact that he is not your father, corporal punishment is wrong. You are young and your hormones are still unsettled. This can give your body mixed messages such as the difference between right and wrong. Please see a school counsellor and get this off your chest.
google_girl Posted January 13, 2011 Posted January 13, 2011 When we are in teen age hormones play with our head.We tend to feel attraction towards men we should not feel otherwise.This is pretty much normal.You need to sort it out.I used to go away from such a people and keep my mind busy in other activities.I worked with me.Might work on you as well.
SincereOnlineGuy Posted January 14, 2011 Posted January 14, 2011 Did someone used to "paddle you" when you were much younger??? (lets say, 5, 6, or 7) If so, then it would be perfectly common that you would be drawn to repetitions of the physical abuses you suffered before. (strangely enough)
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