sleep.less Posted January 8, 2011 Posted January 8, 2011 (edited) My bf of 5 years and I broke up Mid Nov '10 when he married behind my back. (I am told his step father was very instrumental in forcing us apart!) In our frantic exchange of mails, in our last days together, he maintained he loved me, that though we had lost, he was not ready to accept it but now had no courage left to face me! I really struggled to understand what he meant then, but the confusion came to an end when his uncle informed me, that my ex was married now. It was a big blow to me, and I felt he betrayed my faith! What followed was a killing but very necessary NC! I struggled a lot the entire december, coping with a nervous breakdown, but eventually I chose to accept the new reality of my life, may be he never really loved me enough. But things were not meant to be that easy.... for on new years (Jan 1st) I received a mail from my ex, he had not wished me new years, nothing of sorts, but he had pasted the cuppy cake jingle lyrics to me... (honeybunch sugarplum ..and I love you, so I want you to know I'll always be right here.... sing this song to you because you are so dear) I read it and i just ignored it and never replied back. It just didnt stir any emotion in me! I thought this was enough to discourage him, but no it didnt work, for 3 days down the line, I received a call from his mother, very lovingly enquiring about my well being. I was very upset, and in a very firm but dignified manner, I asked her to not call me back again. She constantly tried to explain things to me, that atleast listen to me, he was very helpless, but I didnt listen to her and disconnected the call. Since, I am pretty disturbed. Is it that he's feeling guilty and is doing all of this only to reduce his guilt and my pain? Or is he genuinely trying to come back, amend things? Is it even worth the pain, for he's already a married man now? And am I right in not encouraging any communication from their end? (I feel they're communicating to me because the wife's probably back to her parents' house for a break! And am sure once she's back, they will go back to NC!) I am confused and miserable! (Till date my ex has not confessed to me or uttered in front of me that he's married now!) Edited January 8, 2011 by sleep.less
0hpenelope Posted January 8, 2011 Posted January 8, 2011 What are they trying to do to you? That is such a mindf*ck. I'm sorry that I don't have anything more helpful to say. That's utterly horrible. He should just leave you alone and focus on his new family.
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