makelemonade1974 Posted January 7, 2011 Posted January 7, 2011 Yeah - I was bad. And I've come so far. I just can't let it lie unless he knows I wish him well. If he doesn't want to be with me, I at least want him to know that I will always care. I feel like that makes me a bigger person I guess - I at least honor my promises. Gheesh. Wish I could just stop loving him. Text was "Happy New Year. Hope its the best one yet. Take care of yourself. Still love you. Always. Found some more of your books. Will put in your box at work." Not so bad? Still maintaining dignity? Not stalker? Arghhhhh
marqueemoon4 Posted January 7, 2011 Posted January 7, 2011 the "still love you" part might've been a bit much. You're only human, congrats on going 34 days NC. See if they respond, if not you got it off your chest and you can resume NC.
radiodarcy Posted January 7, 2011 Posted January 7, 2011 i think that's normal. going on NC is like going on a diet - - we all have our set backs. and sometimes we need those set backs in order to give us resolve to keep moving forward.
bzoe Posted January 7, 2011 Posted January 7, 2011 i think that's normal. going on NC is like going on a diet - - we all have our set backs. and sometimes we need those set backs in order to give us resolve to keep moving forward. ha ha i like this. too true I agree - go back to NC and if you itch to say something, just log onto here and tell us. We'll understand
Author makelemonade1974 Posted January 8, 2011 Author Posted January 8, 2011 Yeah, I'm back on the wagon. I guess he doesn't necessarily need to know that I still love him. I just wish I had some sort of assurance that he didn't hate me. The complete silence is just horrific. We were really in love for a long time - just got to fighting too much. I'm just at the point where I feel like I'm waiting for him. Which is probably ridiculous. It's just a way of coping with things right now. Is there any way to find out if he doesn't hate me? Should I wait a couple months and try again? He's so stubborn . . . I've been dating - not like I'm sitting around waiting for the phone to ring - I just have hope.
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