m2s Posted January 6, 2011 Posted January 6, 2011 WHY WHY WHY did he have to do this to us. To his son, why was some s!ut more important than his 2 year old boy???? I hate him so much for this, but i love him at the same time. I am retarded. Why cant i stop crying, why cant i stop thinking of him. Sorry had to vent.
daMien_rice Posted January 6, 2011 Posted January 6, 2011 is it really him you are missing or is it the person who you thought he was? would you fall for that guy in the first place if you knew his true colors?
SimonSerenade Posted January 6, 2011 Posted January 6, 2011 is it really him you are missing or is it the person who you thought he was? would you fall for that guy in the first place if you knew his true colors? He's right, You miss the guy he was, The guy you knew wouldn't do something as cruel as that, Unfortunately that guy's gone and if he came back then it would be because he's changed and would be the man you loved, Don't torture yourself over him, It was his mistake and sooner or later he'll realise it.
dreamingoftigers Posted January 6, 2011 Posted January 6, 2011 WHY WHY WHY did he have to do this to us. To his son, why was some s!ut more important than his 2 year old boy???? because some people are twistedly selfish and figure that they can make it up to their child (or it won't affect their child, or they can just blame you and make the child think they are the hero). I hate him so much for this, but i love him at the same time. I am retarded. (Your brain has a lot of conflicting memories it is trying to process, it is a neurological function of your brain trying to figure out what is what, eventually the whole thing will come to roughly the same conclusion and you won't love him and you won't hate him. You will start to forget him and then his influence will sharply shrink and he shall become nothing more then an incovenience (like have to wait in line at Wal Mart) and that is only if he is around for the child in any capacity at all. Why cant i stop crying, why cant i stop thinking of him. (Brain dealing with broken bond and deep limbic injury from the trauma of that. Google it, it is nothing to be ashamed of. Google books has Change Your Brain, Change Your Life, read page 44-45 ish. It explains what happens in your brain when a major life bond get disrupted.) Sorry had to vent. This is nothing to feel like an idiot or ashamed of. Part of you is still bonded with him and that part has literally been injured. Deep limbic system injuries heal around 6 months if you don't get retraumatized. Best of luck.
Leandro Posted January 6, 2011 Posted January 6, 2011 WHY WHY WHY did he have to do this to us. To his son, Because he's just being immature. Probably thinks he can make it up later in life. why was some s!ut more important than his 2 year old boy???? It's weird how most of they always downgrade in some way. I hate him so much for this, but i love him at the same time. I am retarded. Why cant i stop crying, why cant i stop thinking of him.You're not retarded. You loved him. It's going to take some time.
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