SDA Posted January 5, 2011 Posted January 5, 2011 I ended up drinking a lot tonight and thought about her the whole night. I miss her plenty enough I feel like an idiot because people have it so much worse off then me. Whether it be a marriage where someone has lost the love of their life and their children or a 6 year relationship. Here I am crying over a 18 year old girl who I spent the last year with who continues to think whether she wants to be in a relationship or not. I hate myself for this.I know that even if she has to think about it, it is not true love. She doesn't deserve me yet I am left with nothing. I hope everyone gains happiness back and lives a better life with the pain they are suffering now.
homebrew Posted January 5, 2011 Posted January 5, 2011 Dude... Hitting the sauce when you are heartbroken isn't wise! She was your first love and your first serious relationship... It takes time! Hope this helps... After not talking with my first love / first relationship for the first few years... We finally ended up talking. We still catch up every couple of years. Going on 15+ years now.
Author SDA Posted January 5, 2011 Author Posted January 5, 2011 I didn't drink because of her it was more of a social thing. I know i'll be in contact with her and stuff and everything. She just confuses me so much with the things she says. When she is positive she wants to break up or stay broken up and then one day she wants to be with me. I understand its confusing for her. I understand it's a hard age. But stop with this, don't tell me about your confusion. Figure it out.
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