justletgox51 Posted January 2, 2011 Posted January 2, 2011 Hello, everyone. So, it's back to school for high school students out there and including myself. I've been really using my Christmas break to try and let go of him, yet for the 2 weeks there were times when he wrote on his FB status (people told me) like, "All I wanted for Christmas was you but you ruined it so never mind," "Girls these days... Oh wait, maybe it's just me because of my ex." In addition to that, I broke NC on Christmas day by calling him. I wanted to greet him and expected for him not to answer his cell but he did. In the end, it went bad because he just kept saying, "**** Christmas! I'm not doing anything for this day. Ugh. **** Christmas!" And it really made me feel guilty. Though, I called just to greet him and say sorry since Christmas day was supposed to be our one year anniversary. But he broke it off after a day of our 11 month due to me being a stupid, and over-dramatic girl. Sigh. If you want to know what really happened, here is the thread: http://www.loveshack.org/forums/t256150/ Please do read to understand more about my situation. In addition to that, after a few hours after we had that phone call on Christmas day, I received an anonymous person asking questions on my blog about how my ex loves someone else now (the anonymous person), how I only felt nice dating him because he was a year older than me (I'm in grade 10 and he's in grade 11) and that he deserves someone better. It hurt a bit because my ex was the one who broke up with me... But I have been venting on my blog about the things he did. Here is another thread that I hope you guys will read: http://www.loveshack.org/forums/t258245/ I called him again after I received the anonymous messages and I just left a voice mail asking him if he knows the person who has been asking me these hurtful questions/comments on my blog. And told him to tell someone that I know to tell me. I didn't want a call back. However, a few minutes later he called and ugh. Our conversation was just bad. He kept reminiscing and told me about how he wanted to do so many things for our one year and how he bought me a gift before we broke up and looked for me to give his present after our Christmas assembly (official day for our Christmas break- we were already broken apart). However, he then told me he gave the gift away to someone else because he had second thoughts that I was still mad at him for what he did to me on my birthday (I got mad at him for acting like we were still a couple and gave me kisses). And now tomorrow is school... Before the Christmas break I kept chasing after him, telling him to talk to me-- but in the end I always got hurt by his words. So tomorrow is school... and I really need help on how to cope seeing him around the hallways since our high school is a self-directed school. Meaning, we get to go to any departments without being assigned. I hope you get what I mean. Please help!
D78 Posted January 3, 2011 Posted January 3, 2011 justletgox51 - I think you should avoid going to the same department as your ex as much as possible. Stay away from him. If you see him, do the whole smile and wave thing. Try to have a friend with you to make sure you don't get weak. It must be hard to go to the same school as your ex. You won't ever get over it if you stay focused on him all day. Just make it through one school day at a time. Good luck!
SDA Posted January 3, 2011 Posted January 3, 2011 Be happy even if you find it hard fake it. Be with someone at all times. You are also so young, I'm young too and I wasted my high school on one girl. I stopped talking to her and started hanging out and made some new friends. She came back begging. Not saying your boyfriend will come back begging but be happy and get yourself out there is the best thing for you. Don't mope over him. Easier said then done.
SincereOnlineGuy Posted January 3, 2011 Posted January 3, 2011 C'mon, based on that first linked post up there, your ex is an abusive a-hole. Just forget all about him. Tomorrow is the first day of the rest of your life. (unfortunately, the best move for you right now (totally forgetting all about him) doubles as the best way to inspire his renewed interest in you)
Author justletgox51 Posted January 3, 2011 Author Posted January 3, 2011 Thank you so much for the advices and suggestions! I will thoroughly follow what you all have said. I'm honestly just very scared and will be depressed when I do see him with his jock friends, and I just hope that I won't have to hear nor see him ever again. Though, I probably will have to at some point throughout the years until I have lost feelings for him or until he graduates due to the fact of basketball announcements and ugh. But I will try my best to pretend being all happy until pretending becomes a daily chore. Sigh. I am so scared of going back to school... And scared & sad that I'm going to see him have all these girls making him laugh. It's so easy for him since he's a jock.. Unlike me. I have 3 close friends that I hang out in school and I only casually say 'hey' to boys. Anyway, I've already asked my close friends if I can go to the same departments as them and to avoid him ASAP. (yn) Wish me luck! & thank you to all advices!
Author justletgox51 Posted January 6, 2011 Author Posted January 6, 2011 UPDATE: I have been trying my best to avoid and ignore him. It's because there are still some periods where I see him walking around the hallways with his friends (thank God). However, today we saw each other in a crowd of busy students going to departments, and he didn't have anyone to talk to, neither did I but I was close to a department that I wanted to go into. However, we saw each other and I quickly looked down... I have followed all the advices which is to ignore and avoid him as much as possible. I know to some people they may ask me, "Why didn't you give a faint smile or wave or something?" Uh... It hurts. To be honest, it hurts seeing him. It hurts to see him happy or sad. /: That's why I try my best to not look at him. I hate it when I seriously by accident see him in the halls and we look at each other. However, I have to pretend that I'm not hurt, sad, or disappointed right? I'm trying. Anyway, after that an hour later passed and my friend told me that my ex approached her and told her, "I still want to be friends with justletgox51. I don't hate her. I saw her today and I tried saying hi but she just looked away. Plus, I see that's she's wearing make up now, (I only wear white eyeliner, mascara and lip gloss - guys is that too much? However, he told me when we dated that make up is a turn off to him. =.=") it's a turn off." At first, I cared and then went back to reality. I mean if he really wanted to be my friend, he'd find a way to talk to me personally, right? Plus, if you have read my two previous threads-- For a month I have tried my best to communicate, to work things out with him, and lastly to be his friend. However, I read on here that being friends with an ex when you still have feelings for, is not a good thing. So, yeah. I have been thinking about it for the whole day, and I hate thinking about it. Someone help?
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