Chicxulub Posted January 2, 2011 Posted January 2, 2011 Hello all, This is my first post, so bear with me. I'm 32 and the last almost 9 years of my life has been devoted to the love of my life. Sounds great when I don't add any more doesn't it? The trouble is I suppose you could say I've not been treated so well during this time. You could call me a victim of emotional abuse. I get treated bad and then she leaves for a while and I let her back in every time. My fault for sure you could say. This last time just ended 4 days ago, but something different happened. For once I broke up with her. I found out she had been cheating and lieing to me, and on the internet. Nothing physical. But she knew I'm not ok with that sort of behaviour I made it clear. In fact, she wanted me but also wanted to keep acting single on the internet. Everything from naked pics to cams, to cyber... It was like getting shot. So I break up with her. It took every ounce of bravery I could muster but I did it for the first time, I took control for once. But suddenly I'm the jerk for catching her? Suddenly, she still denies everything (keep in mind I had concrete proof)? And instead of being angry and self justified I am lost. It hurts she doesnt even care.... Ok so I get it, you cant make someone love you, and why would I for that matter? I know I should move on here and take my emotional boosts from this however I can. And for once a part of me IS angry. I mean if she didnt care, did she ever? But I just am falling apart here despite all the logic I can throw at this in the world..... Signed, the Forgotten One...
Hades Posted January 2, 2011 Posted January 2, 2011 Chicxulub, anger is part of the stages of grief and loss. It is okay to feel that way. But keep pressing forward. Pray about it. Go no contact! You deserve something greater!
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