WiselyNaive Posted December 27, 2010 Posted December 27, 2010 WOW ; I made a post yesterday about my ex and concluded that when i saw him i would ignore him.. however i didn't factor in alcohol i got really drunk confessed my love even though we broke up almost a year ago...he clearly didnt feel as strongly as me if he felt that way at all, i told him i wanted to have sex (im a virgin never gave it up our entire relationship) went to his car with him got all the way there..wisened the **** up and said sorry i didnt mean it CLEARLY HE WAS UPSET...he lied 2 me said some stuff somehow he called me a bitch and i ended up biting his face ( badly his mouth was bleeding) ended up walking all the way down the road...had a fight in the middle of the street at like 3 am..he didnt rlly hit me more like restrained me...ended up hugging and crying and w.e went back to the party...acted like i didnt know him . also he told me he had a gf in the middle of this (i think thats wat set me off) n i started threatening that i was gonna tell her all this ****..their not "in love" but he clearly has feelings for her and they are probably stronger than w.e he has left for me. i think telling him i was gonna tell her **** is what set him off. this is all true and my life is actually REALLY NORMAL..this has to be one of the most dramatic things ive ever been in..im hurt but im not getting into the emotions yet im like locked off...i said alot stupid stuff ...i really looked like a deranged psycho ex Girlfriend..i feel bad but my question is i had him blocked on fb b4 that and deleted him from bbm we dont talk and i dont think he was anyway to contact me not that he would or should but should i text/bbm/message him asking if he and his lip are ok? :S OMG I SOUND SO CRAZY.... But Seriously..should I?... or go back to the "strangers" act whenever we see each other....i always knew i had unresolved issues but there are clearly more feelings that i thought...should i contact him to talk it out..cause it rlly was kind of a big deal ive never gotten physical with any1.... n i really dont think he kne wi still cared he was shocked. . .i feel like nc is best even though its been so long but knowing ill see him everytime im drunk may not b a good mix cause it could happen again if there is no closure.... should i leave it alone ?
Fern Posted December 27, 2010 Posted December 27, 2010 You're acting like a psycho and making a fool of yourself. Stop it. Don't contact him again. You're not worried about him, you're just grasping at straws to stay in contact. Move on and find a boy who'll be able to be a good influence in your life - not make you dramatic and nutso.
durkadurka Posted December 27, 2010 Posted December 27, 2010 First thing I thought when I read this is.. this chick is nuts.
TaraMaiden Posted December 27, 2010 Posted December 27, 2010 See, people, what happens when someone can't hold their drink? they make a complete and utter buffoon of themselves and dignity sits hiding under the duvet, refusing to come out. What a mess you are, girl.....
Author WiselyNaive Posted December 27, 2010 Author Posted December 27, 2010 lmao....i honestly have to agree but i swear im not crazy...well clearly i am but...it really isnt that way at all...and unless i close lines of comm. he normally talks first.... so i guess i shouldnt ask if hes fine :S.....seems kind of cold but...i guess it makes sense lol
TaraMaiden Posted December 27, 2010 Posted December 27, 2010 I really believe the only way you can retrieve your dignity is to completely let this go, don't mention it, don't refer to it, deny remembering it, and if someone brings it to your attention, apologise for getting so wasted, say you don't remember a single thing about it, and vow you will never let yourself get that wasted again - can they please hold you to that? And drop it.
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