mgene15 Posted December 25, 2010 Posted December 25, 2010 Alot of people on my facebook are having great christmas eve dinners with there girlfriends/boyfriends familys...it's pretty rough right now i'm not gonna lie, this time last year I was with my girlfriend's family loving life. jus want this year to end.. Christmas isn't gonna be all that great tomorrow even no I'll have to put a happy face on for my neices and nephews... how many other people seem to get it rubbed in there face that there friend's are having great times opening presents and eating dinner with there other half's family's tonight?.. just venting...
IfiKnewThen Posted December 25, 2010 Posted December 25, 2010 quote: this time last year I was with my girlfriend's family loving life. just want this year to end.. it's so true how you remember what you did this time last year when before you wouldn't have even gave it a second thought. then you're faced with thinking of the past. it just auto pops up into your head hang in there. keep going and feel better soon
Sonolumino Posted December 25, 2010 Posted December 25, 2010 It's tough at times, its my first Christmas alone in a while too. My one friend texted me about how he and his new girlfriend were spending this awesome time together, having sex, hanging out with her family, etc., all that stuff that you could say "Ah yes, I remember that". ****ty feeling, but what is there to do?
i made a mess Posted December 25, 2010 Posted December 25, 2010 Alot of people on my facebook are having great christmas eve dinners with there girlfriends/boyfriends familys...it's pretty rough right now i'm not gonna lie, this time last year I was with my girlfriend's family loving life. jus want this year to end.. Christmas isn't gonna be all that great tomorrow even no I'll have to put a happy face on for my neices and nephews... how many other people seem to get it rubbed in there face that there friend's are having great times opening presents and eating dinner with there other half's family's tonight?.. just venting... Oh I hear that! Christmas for me this year is awful. I feel entirely alone, in a room full of people. Literally, every one in my family over the age of 18 is in a relationship. All of my siblings are either married, engaged, or dating. All of my aunts and uncles have significant others or are married. I just know how tomorrow will play out once the entire family arrives. "Hey, how are ya? So when are you going to settle down and start a family?" "Are you dating anyone" "You know you're getting older and it might be a good idea to start thinking about the future and meeting a nice guy". I'd really just like to throw them all for a loop with total honesty and say "Well, I have severe trust issues. I broke the man I loves heart because I was afraid he'd leave me, I'm seeing a therapist once a week, I don't sleep due to such vivid dreams that are so upsetting I'd rather be exhausted then to dream these dreams that I wake up bawling my eyes out from, and I'm fully aware of the fact that if I don't get married and start having kids soon I'm going to have to donate my eggs to Denny's and hope they name a grand slam after me...nice to see you again, pass the vodka!". At least we all have eachother...because lord knows hardly anyone else seems to understand what we're going through. Merry Christmas Love Shackers!!
J0N Posted December 25, 2010 Posted December 25, 2010 ^ Don't be so hard on yourself. My ex sat at the head table with me at my sisters wedding a few months ago. I just got back from a family party, I must have been asked (and had to explain) about my ex and why we split. So many people said "she was so nice." I would have rather been kicked in the balls twenty times then do that again. Crappy night.
BlindRage Posted December 25, 2010 Posted December 25, 2010 Honestly I was at my family's gathering and all my cousins(who are girls) started playing music that my ex used to play. It just annoyed me and I was so angry, girls annoy me so much right, just the thought of them ugh! I just grabbed a plate of food and told my mom I'm going home and left. While I was there I just felt depress and wanted to contact my ex. I hate that feeling. Right now, I actually feel better and relax and don't feel like screaming. I'm just sitting in front of the t.v watching Oceans Thirteen. To be honest with you I rather be alone than with company right now. Oh and I guess it helped that the whole way home I was blasting music and crying my eyes out.
Sonolumino Posted December 25, 2010 Posted December 25, 2010 Haha it's nice to know that we're not alone. Every time this time of year has come around in the past, even if I had been single, I had a good time and was happy. This year is obviously not that way, but what is there to do. I'm gonna put on a happy face and hopefully trick my brain. I don't believe there's anything else for me to learn feeling miserable.
IfiKnewThen Posted December 25, 2010 Posted December 25, 2010 I'm gonna put on a happy face and hopefully trick my brain. I don't believe there's anything else for me to learn feeling miserable. this is good advise
vandelay Posted December 25, 2010 Posted December 25, 2010 Alot of people on my facebook are having great christmas eve dinners with there girlfriends/boyfriends familys... Facebook is NOT an accurate representation of life. Some of those people are happy, and some are miserable. Most people just want you to think they are having fun.
Juzzy Posted December 26, 2010 Posted December 26, 2010 Xmas eve was at my entire extended family's place. feeling pretty good(she broke up with me 3 weeks ago after 5 years together...G.I.G.S) i walk in say hi to everyone and then the dreaded questions come flying, in fron t of everyone..."where's x?" ummmm. it was so dam heartbreaking coz after i explanied to them, there was this awkward silnce with peoples faces in disbelief (the family really thought we were going to be married) so the night goes on and i forget about it until present time... since the family didnt know about it, her name was called out multiple times to come up and collect her presents...then came the little whispers amongst family... wow it was very uncomfortable but i survived:sick:
bl22 Posted December 26, 2010 Posted December 26, 2010 Xmas eve was at my entire extended family's place. feeling pretty good(she broke up with me 3 weeks ago after 5 years together...G.I.G.S) i walk in say hi to everyone and then the dreaded questions come flying, in fron t of everyone..."where's x?" ummmm. it was so dam heartbreaking coz after i explanied to them, there was this awkward silnce with peoples faces in disbelief (the family really thought we were going to be married) so the night goes on and i forget about it until present time... since the family didnt know about it, her name was called out multiple times to come up and collect her presents...then came the little whispers amongst family... wow it was very uncomfortable but i survived:sick: I get that at work all the time, people asking how my 'gf' is and theres always an awkward silence followed by 'were not together anymore....i dont really want to talk about it thanks'
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