Mayquena Posted December 24, 2010 Posted December 24, 2010 Hi All, I feel terrible right now. From the bottom of my heart I know that stop loving him and letting him go without hatred would make me stronger and safe my broken heart...but one thing that keeps me from doing so is that I always thought we have potential, but the time doesn't allow us just yet. Here is the story. I met him when I was interning back in June 2008. We didn't talke that much until my last day interning. He approached me. So, we got each other contact ..msn and phone no. Anyway, I left to the states for my vacation for a month (just a few days after my internship). We talked every single day like 3 hours. There were sweet words, but not really like I love you ..but they were words that normal friends don't use. Anyway, I flew back on 11th Aug 08. I arrived around midnight. We talked till 3 am in the morning and we arranged our first lunch ! I got a little something for him. It was an aroma for those who have trouble of sleeping. He treated me lunch. Everything went well. Then, we seperated to do our own business. Then I met him again at my faculty play. ...He came with his ex whom he claimed he was over with her. At that time, I felt like being crashed by a truck. I went home and lied down on my bed. My eyes were staring at nothing and tried to make sense of how could this happen.. so, I decided I stopped. Then, he asked me out again. I was confused but still went out with him because I thought he might be really over with his ex. He just happened to come to the play with her as a friend and he didn't drop her home anyway. This time we watched movie too. ..Time went by.. I noticed we had a rare contact..of course I stalked him on Facebook...then I found out he returned to his ex...This was my frist heart broken (for him)... In 2009, I went to Australia for my exchange program. He said he sent me sms when I left but I didn't get it though. Anyway, I was already in my good shape. But, it started again when I was back to my hometown in December 2009. I asked him for a meal because I had some chocolate for him. At that time, I just thought it would end here. It would be alright. Anyway, it went well again. And on Christmas day...25th Dec of last year...he asked me if I wanted to go out with him as a friend..you know like he got something to do and I might want to be his company...I went out like 12-7 PM. ...afterthat he went to Korea with his family holidays and to China for 4 months for chinese study. And I saw his ex visiting him ...from facebook. This was my second heart broken. This year 2010 ...he's back ! But just a little while because he has to go to Uk for his master..I was graduating. He came to congratulate me and gave me a gift(schedule book). To be honest, I was expecting for a bouquet, but never mind. It was about 12 and I had to be in an auditorium so i asked him if I could leave my stuffs in his car. He agreed and said he might be here agian round 5 Pm. But thing changed. He called later and said maybe very late. Around 7Pm that day I called him to arrange how to get my stuff back. I straightforwardly asked him if he would just only want to give me my stuffs back or well.. we have to go out anyway why not have some dinner. He said yes. He picked me up and dropped me home and the dinner was on him. And then before he left to UK, I bought him shirt and wrote some card but not a sweet one because I didn't want to convey any message like that... he asked him if he could drop by my place to pick up something for his friend. He said yes..then I waited..I called..he forgot. So, I had a messenger send the stuff the next morning. He was surprised and said I am such a nice/kind/cute person. anyway he left to UK. And I found out he wasn't over with his ex.... while in UK, He sent me blackberry message quite often. I was always there for him when he couldn't sleep/alone/tired/ or whatsoever. The point is I was there to comfort him. So, we kept talking...he called twice just 2 weeks ago..for just a chat. He told me we should meet..I said yes. But honestly, I didn't take his word as anything because I was giving up. ... he had a little difficulty in getting back because the airport was closed. He sent me blackberry message saying he was stuck, but we didn't talk much because it was so busy at the airport (according to him).. Now he's here. He still mentioned about meeting me. But guys... I don't want to get hurt again ... so I think I will ignore him in every way.. not really deleting his contacts.. but worse I will let him know that I ignore him because I am tired of being a second best.. Do you think I do the right thing..I always feel we are so meant to be together but...as you can see...I may have just keep lying to myself... I don't know if he would even care I'm disappearing from his life..
january2010 Posted December 24, 2010 Posted December 24, 2010 He's hurt you numerous times throughout your 'relationship'. Someone who really cares about you wouldn't hurt you like this and treat you like a yo-yo. You may feel that you're meant to be together but that's because you're more emotionally invested in this relationship - he appears to only feel that way when he's at a loose end. He probably only cares when his fallback girl is not there to "comfort" him. I suggest getting out of the trap of being his Plan B. Go complete NC (delete and block). There's no need to inform him. Otherwise you risk wasting another two years of your life pining for this guy.
Author Mayquena Posted December 25, 2010 Author Posted December 25, 2010 Thank you for your reply. I somehow know I'm too available for him. But i'm working out forgeting him for good. I hope I can do it this time..for real.
livelife Posted December 25, 2010 Posted December 25, 2010 Hi! I got your reply to my, I hope, uplifiting thread:) I hate to say it, but it does sound like you are second best. Why does he hang out with you and send you sweet stuff and talk to you late at night, and then go to his ex? I cant help but relate this back to my ex I talked about in my thread. yes, I did say that he said he missed me so much and no other girl compared to me, but Now that I have unblocked him it is so very distant I just want to reblock him. It hurts me because I know for a fact he was talking to this other girl, and they stopped talking. Thats when he said how hes tried dating and no other girl works, he hasnt felt the same way with a girl as he did with me. I think he is being distant because this other girl has him talking to her again. I was totally fine and healed and now I am hurt again by just a tiny bit of contact. But you saw how awesome of results I got from unblocking him. I think you need to do the same, Don't talk to him, don't see him, it will only hurt you!!! Yes it will hurt to not see him, but you will get better. Try to meet other guys, try to talk to other guys. i know its hard, im still going through the pain but it HAS gotten better!! As much as I want to be with him again, I dont know if I could cause he is way too much of a player, and he sounds just like this guy your talking to. he talks to many girls at once and leads them on, and Its not fair. Maybe you should be straight forward with him and ask him whats going on? Best of Luck!!
Author Mayquena Posted December 25, 2010 Author Posted December 25, 2010 Thank you so much !! I'll try my best to cut him off out of my life. Well, life goes on when I move on. Thanks so much for your reply. I hope you are doing well too.
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