NC for almost a week and a half! :'(

[justletgox51]

So my ex and broke up weeks ago, if you'd like to read what happened here it is: http://www.loveshack.org/forums/t256150/

 

Anyhow, on Christmas day is our supposedly one year together... and man it feels terrible! I hear Christmas love songs everywhere in stores, at school, etc :'( I tried talking to him 4 days before my school's Christmas break to rekindle being 'friends' since it was almost Christmas, and I just wanted peace. However, it went sour because he basically humiliated me in front of grade nine students (I'm a sophomore who's in grade 10, and he's a junior in grade 11) that I'm stupid. Sigh. After that I went back to NC and I'm still on NC still :'( But it's so sad how he probably doesn't even miss me! He already blocked me on Facebook but people have told me that on his FB status he said, "All I want for Christmas was you but you ruined it nvm." :'( :'( People have told me, it wasn't necessary for him to post that but ugh </3

 

I'm trying to be happy and loving myself, and it's going okay right now. It's just this whole Christmas and New Year's phase that's really ticking me off >< :'(

 

HELP!!! D:

[Don_da_Ho]

Once you really come to terms with the fact that "having" someone during the holidays is nice but not a "need" you should feel better. People have all kinds of perceptions about "how" their life and a relationship should be during the holidays. You should focus on others and your family for Christmas. That's what's really important, not some immature guy. Stop being so self-centered.

[justletgox51]

Yeah, I get what you mean.... Thank you

[justletgox51]

So, about 15 hours ago my ex wrote on his FB status: "Girls These Days... Maybe Its Just Me Cause Of My Ex..... FML"

 

:'( :'( What does he mean? One person told me: "

he's looking at girls differently right now because of your breakup

and he's sorta blaming you"

 

 

I WILL NOT CRY. LS HELP :'( Someone told me what happened and I didn't even wanted to know :'(

[AZGarnethawk]

It means he is immature and getting attention this way. When someone mentions his name just hold your hand up and say I don't want to know. Then go out with your friends and focus on your family and enjoy the season for the time that it is. Soon enough you will be on your own and wishing you could go home again or spend just one day in your childish shoes with your adult memories. LOL life is to short to dwell on it.

[Patrice]

Get him off your facebook ... damned thing! Enjoy your freedom and have a lovely holiday ... time to move forward ... xxoo

[justletgox51]

Yeah I think he is immature. I do that at times but there are times where they just blurt it out, so disrespectful. I have been doing that Yes, I shouldn't dwell on this. But it hurts that he wants this type of attention. I mean, he was the one who broke up with me which was weeks ago, who has humiliated me, insulted me and cursed at me. And now he wants to hurt me at this time of the year because tomorrow is our supposedly one year anniversary? I thought he'd be over and move on.

 

The status would have been alright, if he didn't have to mention: EX. WTF?!

[Leandro]

He is immature. Don't worry about it. Stick to NC.

[justletgox51]

GUYS I BROKE NC! :'( :'(

 

Just 30 minutes ago, I called to say, "Merry Christmas and have a happy new year!" I thought he wouldn't answer his phone and I was going to put it as voicemal, but he answered in just one ring >< Here is how the convo went:

 

basically in the beginning I said, "Hello?... Merry Christmas and have a happy new year.." and he said, "You too." And I said, "please be happy this year... It's Christmas.. Jesus' birthday... At least for him." And he said, "**** Christmas.. Whatever." And it went on like that for a good 5-minutes until he told me how people hate him, and I said, "No one hates you, JOsh. All I'm asking is for you to be happy!" And he said, "Okay, whatever. You moved on so fast, already like 2 guys according to your tumblr?" And I said, "Moved on? You don't how much times I annoyed my friends over you, how much I cried to my mom." And he said, "You think I don't?" And I asked, "Well just be happy okay? My Christmas wish is for YOU to be happy." and he said, "**** that. It's not gonna happen. **** Christmas!" and I said, "Well go to family parties, party, do something to be HAPPY! Why are you bringing down Jesus' birthday?! Because of me? Seriously, Josh." And he said, "Whatever. **** Christmas!" And until we got to the point when he said, "Once it's the New Year's I'll begin a new life." And I said, "that's good." And I asked, "Do you still have Liz... and my letters and notes?..." And he replied, "Yeah. I told you I never throw away anything. And I loved you so much you think I'd just forget about you?" And I said, "Well you'll obviously forget about me soon... so it doesn't matter." And he said, "I don't care. Whatever. **** this day!" And I said, "Oh. i see. It's CHRISTMAS!" And he said, "Why did you even call me? Why do you care?" And I said, "To say Merry Christmas... and Yeah i do care. I also heard you like some other girl now." And he said, "You do care. And noo, since when?! Bull ****!" Until I just said, "well you're not alone. But you'll be happy without me, All I wanted this Christmas day was for you to apologize, sincerely." He replied, "Sorry! I forgave you a long time ago, no need for me to say it again." And I said, "oh.. i forgive you too.. It's just I wanted you to show it. Plus, you didn't go to church today.." He said, "whatever. So? Does it matter?" And I said, "Yeah! FOR JESUS! NOT FOR US." And he just said, "You know what?! I'll be happy if you left." And I just said, "Sigh.. Fine be that way, good bye. Now be happy.", "Bye."

 

 

:'( :'(

 

I AM STUPID FOR BREAKING NC.

[anna74]

He sounds exactly like my 16 yr old son. He & his gf went through a period like that. I bet he cares, and misses you a lot more than you think! My sons gf would call me crying, because he was so mean to her!

 

She stopped calling him and he deleted her from FB I asked him why. He said, "cuz she's stupid". I said,"Oh. Good thing she's not your gf anymore then." "DON'T WORRY ABOUT MY BUSINESS MOM!" See? He was trying to get her attention!!! Then he roared at me for calling him on it. He wasn't about to admit that he was trying to get her attention with silly games.

 

Don't call him. She stayed away for 4 months before he broke.

[Leandro]

He really does sound immature. Stop wasting your time on him, please.

 

Start NC again and stick to it this time. Come here if you stat thinking about breaking it.

 

We'll help you if you let us and listen to what we say.

 

Merry Christmas to you!

[justletgox51]

@ Anna74: Really?! My ex is 16 too, what a coincidence! I don't even know if he cares anymore... I mean he tells me how he cried so much for me, and how he loved me so much... :'( But if he loved me so much, he would have stayed no matter what. While on the phone, I just kept saying, "I'm not going to cry..." all through the conversation because it really hurt. He already insulted me on my birthday, and now Jesus' birthday?! And he's only going to change in the New Year?? :'( What is this... :'( And about the Facebook deleted part, that's the same reasons he deleted me off too, when I asked him. He said it's because I was annoying and stupid and he deleted me off my birthday as well :'( </3

 

Sigh. That's what my mom told me too, I literally just bawled into tears from what he told me to my mom. I honestly want to call his mom, but at the same time I don't want to get her upset at me :'( But then again... He said he'll forget and start a new life this New Year... so if that's what makes him happy... I'll be happy too :'(

 

@ Leandro: I'm trying... I'm trying... It's just today I wanted to be nice, and apologized over again and all I get is, "You've said sorry once, don't say it again." :'( I honestly am trying to make myself happy at this time of the year because Christmas is about spending time with my family and friends. But at the same time, it was at this moment where both of us were very happy...

 

Yeap, I will :'( Thank you.

 

Merry Christmas to the both of you!

[anna74]

Merry Christmas to you too. I figured he was about the same age, that's why I replied. First, you need to calm down. Listen to me. He's doing all those things, because he knows he'll get a reaction. You know, my son even let his friends play a joke on her! They called her saying Jake wanted to get back together, and when she got all excited they said they were kidding and hung up. He caught hell from me for that one. Can you imagine how she felt? Now, he can't believe he did that to her.

 

You need to send a clear msg that no one can treat you that way. You can do it.

[justletgox51]

@ anna74: Oh my, that sounds horrible! I was somewhat in that situation right after we broke up. A week of mixed signals here and there... He wanted to give me kisses but after the day ended, he'd tell me he doesn't want me anymore. Until I just ignored him after that whole week of being played, until my birthday came. He told me he wants to be left alone and never to talk to him, and I followed. I never expected him to greet me on my birthday and he gave me kisses which pissed me off. Now, he hates me.. :'( Especially after being told that he'll be much happier if I left and how he'll get over this by New Year's. Sigh...

 

Yes, I certainly can imagine how she felt.. That's honestly horrible! D; Ohh.. i see.

 

I honestly don't even know how anymore...

[justletgox51]

So, I called him regarding this site: Tumblr. and on my blog there's an anonymous person hating on me about my ex (the one I talk about here) and so I called but no one picked up. A few minutes later, he called and this is how our conversation went:

 

He told me, "you call me.. What's wrong?" I said, "Oh.. Tumblr. This person is talking bad things..." And he said, "tell me.." And I told him the messages. He said, "Leave them alone... That's what I had to do when I heard so many **** from people."

"If you don't leave them alone, they'll react more." And I said, "Too late, I reacted."Did you go anywhere for Christmas?" And I said, "no.. I heard you went to Pmall... from Christina. And he said, "yeah." And I said, "Did you get any presents?" And he said, "No. Just one from my aunt. cos i wanted my parents to save money for a laptop."

and yeah.. that was the beginning convo.

And I said, "Too late, I reacted. And sigh." And he said, "Well.. Millicent, I just want to tell you all this: It's almost 2011.. Time to move on." And I said, "Yeah i know..."

And he said, "Yeah. I had a gift for you.."

"Before break I was going to give it to you. I even asked Pamela where you were, but she said, you left. And in my mind, you wouldn't have accepted it because you were mad at me on my birthday."

*you were mad at your birthday."

And I said, "I waited... I waited for you... :'(:'(" And he said, "Well.. I gave the gift to someone else..." :'(:'( And He said, "Promise me something?" I hesitated for awhile.. And I said, "What?" He said, "Promise me that you'll be happy. Please forgive me for what I've done. Our relationship, leave the bad things behind." And I said, "okay." And he said, "Well.. Tell your mom I'm sorry too." And I said, "She's not here right now.."

And he said, "Well when she's back.. Tell her." And I said, "She's still mad..." And he said, "You want me to talk to her? I'll talk to her."

and I said, "No it's okay. I'll tell her. Tell your mom I'm sorry too.." And he said, "I will." And he heard me cry and asked, "Why are you crying? Tell me..." And I said, "Nothing." And he said, "Well I hope you and I will be friends..." And I said, "Okay." And he said, "I planned so much things for us... I already told Melanie and Christina about how I was going to set up the video studio to celebrate our one year.."

"With a mango cake because I know it's your favourite... and pizza. i wanted to make a shirt that said, "I love you Millicent," and on mine, "I love you Marvyn." :'(:'(

and he said, "I even asked Ms. Weather's to help me out..." :'(:'( And I said, "Oh.. :'(:'(" And he said, "I'm sorry for how I acted Millicent... :'(:'(" And I said, "I forgive you.. it's just how you acted to me when you humiliated me in front of people and niners.." And he said, "why do you care about the niners? And I just wanted to be left alone.. If you were me you'd understand right?"

and I said, "yeah.."

until it ended to, "Well I have to go now Millicent.. Happy new year. And bye." And I said, "bye."

 

:'( :'( Help? :'( :'(

[justletgox51]

now i seem like i can't move on... HELP!! :'(

[anna74]

Why do you feel like you can't move on?

[justletgox51]

Cos of what he said... It was very unnecessary for him to tell me all his plans... It makes me feel like this was all my fault :'(

[Don_da_Ho]

Not moving on is a choice. Why? Oh, how about if you don't move on then you think you don't have to face the unknown and don't have to admit you're alone? You'll be fine in both cases. Start letting go and start improving yourself and your life.

[justletgox51]

Yeah, I guess I will have to let go... I was starting to let go until I had to call him regarding anonymous haters on my blog site about him (he didn't pick up but I left a voicemail to let me know if he knows but to tell someone else.) However, he called, told me to leave them alone, apologized, told me he'll forget about all this when the New Year comes, and told me all the plans he wanted to do on our one year. :'( :'( In which made me think back and cried and ugh

[Don_da_Ho]

Oh! You HAD to call him.

[justletgox51]

I KNOOOOW! I was so stupid! D; Now I realized if I didn't call him I wonder if he would have ever called back =.=" Sticking to NC again.