SimonSerenade Posted December 24, 2010 Posted December 24, 2010 I've had a pretty naff night tonight and I've been thinking very long and very hard, I know I have to speak to my ex eventually, I don't want her friendship and I don't even want her back anymore, I want to be civil for my child's sake and I figure I need to start somewhere, Why not Christmas eve?. I still feel I'm not 100% ready for her to be in my life even a little but I fear the longer I leave it the more damage will be done, I've hoped that she might one day contact me and that I might get an apology before any of this get's sorted out but I very much doubt going off the insensetive stubborn selfish person she is right now that I'd get one or that she'd even contact me again. I feel maybe she hasn't contacted because she's not exactly in the right mind set to have me around either or maybe she just dosen't give a rat's ass lol, I've enjoyed my time not being in contact with her and I feel I've dealt with a lot of my issues, Before going no contact I sent her a parting hand written note along with a nice necklace I'd always wanted to buy her with the words "mother" on it. I found closure from that kindness as I felt I did everything I could and said everything I could possibly say before saying goodbye, I may never know how she feels about me or how she's truly coped with this break bup but she knows everything and it feels good to have stayed true to myself regardless. I feel I need a few opinions before I decide to contact her again, I feel the bridge to contact has to open a little or they may just be closed off for good and thats never good in the long run for our little boy and right now me and him are the only things that matter to me. If I did decide on contacting her I feel I'd say something alone the lines of "Hey Sam, Sorry I've not been in contact lately, I've been really busy, Just wanted to wish you a merry Christmas and a happy new year, I know I said I hope we can one be friends but I feel that's just not for me, I'd like to remain in contact and be at the very least on talking terms with you for our son's sake, Anyway I hope your well, Take care :)" Reading that back it seems a little pointless, With any of my past ex's I just wouldn't bother but because we have a child together It's a tad different, Should I contact her or should I wait till she contacts me?
Author SimonSerenade Posted December 24, 2010 Author Posted December 24, 2010 Also I need some advice on how to go about getting my key to my house back of her and how I go about getting her to finally get her stuff out of my house, Just don't feel like it's at an end till it's all gone and I don't have to stare at her apple catchers anymore >.>
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