anna74 Posted December 26, 2010 Posted December 26, 2010 delajoonal: Before this guy started ignoring me he called me a stupid little girl throwing a tantrum! I didn't think I was acting like a little girl, love sick teenager maybe. I wanna kick myself for feeding his ego. Vandelay: Why was she crying in her car?
Author vandelay Posted December 27, 2010 Author Posted December 27, 2010 Anna, She was crying because she had just come home from seeing her kids at her ex-husbands house. Nothing tragic, it just happened to be his turn for xmas, but she was obviously upset about that, and in general having second thoughts about breaking it off with me, and just hating being alone in general. Holidays are very tough for her because of her past. She was married for a long time and it didn't work out for them, and despite all of her own flaws, she felt like she tried really hard to make her family work. She feels a lot of loss over that situation. And yes, i fully realize that her and I getting involved under those circumstances was not exactly wise. But we followed love...
BlindRage Posted December 27, 2010 Posted December 27, 2010 (edited) oh ya, THAT is my fav part...NO sleep...bags and dark circles under eyes, pacing up and down the house, reading HIS emails, looking at pics of happier times, youtube music...face book....crap... well vandelay...C u at 3am..huh..LOL...sorry not funny, u know;) i find working out, walking etc...helps sleep better...but NOT late at nite, for some reason if i work out at night, sleep is harder... I've been following some of your post and I have a question. Why are you guys not together???? It seems he likes you and you like him back. I know you broke up with him but.... Maybe he wants you back(and seems like you do too). It kinda seems you are putting yourself through this deliberate pain in which you do have an option to. Many of us here don't, believe me I know I tried as much as I could! So have many people I've read their stories. Why don't you talk to him and tell him if he would like to meet up with you and talk. From there well you'll know what to do. Edited December 27, 2010 by BlindRage
Author vandelay Posted December 30, 2010 Author Posted December 30, 2010 Horrible contact yesterday! Its not quite like I'm back to square one. More like back to square one and over a couple of spaces. Very messed up but not the same as in the beginning. Hard to explain.
anna74 Posted December 31, 2010 Posted December 31, 2010 What happened? I've had three days of no contact. I keep telling myself that everyday is a day closer to getting my dignity back. Right now, I don't know if I'm gonna be able to make it.
SDA Posted December 31, 2010 Posted December 31, 2010 What happened? I've had three days of no contact. I keep telling myself that everyday is a day closer to getting my dignity back. Right now, I don't know if I'm gonna be able to make it. You will!!!! I'm with you. First week is the hardest. You will have setbacks. If you feel the urge to text or call have someone take your phone.
anna74 Posted December 31, 2010 Posted December 31, 2010 Thank you! I'm trying. I know I shouldn't be thinking like this, but I hope he does contact me. Part of why I'm doing this is because I hope he'll miss me. Either way, I'm trying my hardest.
SDA Posted December 31, 2010 Posted December 31, 2010 Anna I know what you feel. I really hope my ex misses me also. But in order for them too miss you 3 days isn't enough time for that. Right now he is probably happy with the "freedom" and doing what he wants (don't let this allow your imagination to run). Give it time. He will contact you sooner or later. When he does act like you don't care and keep it short. If he doesn't by the time you realize he hasn't you will be over him. Look into the future not the past, that has been helping me today. I'm very short into the NC due to my complicated situation but I have done NC before to get over someone and it worked. She contacted me and was begging me to talk to her and kept asking what she did and why I wont talk to her. I didn't give in because I knew she wasn't into me and neither was I anymore (This was really complicated). This girl actually just texted me haha. I hope this gives you comfort. Time and patience.
anna74 Posted December 31, 2010 Posted December 31, 2010 Thanks, it does give me comfort. Time and patience.
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