slamma19 Posted December 19, 2010 Posted December 19, 2010 (edited) It's been 2 and a half months since my ex boyfriend broke up with me, and today would have been our one and a half year anniversary. It just makes me so sad that things have changed so much... he feels like a stranger to me now. We had that mature, secure, comfortable kind of love, which is really rare and special considering we are so young (he's 17 and I'm 19). Even though we had some struggles and some doubts along the way, overall we had an amazing relationship. We had said forever, he told me he wanted to marry me someday, and we even picked out names for children. We were faithful, loving, caring, and had so much fun together. We were both close with each other's families. We had so much freedom (we were allowed to sleepover and each other's houses, we went on trips alone together, etc.) We were so good together. Yet he has already rushed into liking another girl, who turns out to be the exact opposite of me?? (She's athletic, I'm more artsy. She's shorter and has big boobs, I'm tall and slim. She's a loud-mouth and super outgoing, I'm more mellow and quiet.) I gave him everything, we were each other's first loves, how has he moved on so quickly? He said it's because he had an early start, had felt like the relationship was over a month before it actually happened. It frustrates me so much that I had no idea it was coming. He had discussed his issues with his friends and family, but didn't even have the decency to let ME know how he was feeling, to give me a chance to fix things. I know we were having some problems but I thought we would get through it, because that's what true love is. But no, he gave up and walked away. I guess that's a high school kid for you... I hope one day he realizes what a huge mistake he made. I guess we ended up wanting 2 different things or something, especially with the age difference. The last time I talked to him, he was about to leave the country for a month, and I gave him a heart felt poem that I wrote, a letter and a list of special memories unique to our relationship. I'm pretty sure he forgot to take it, and it was meant for him to read on the plane or whatever. But he probably won't read it till he gets back, and it'll most likely be too late cause he'll have moved on even more and be more into this new girl. This all just sucks. Part of me just never wants to talk to him ever again because he hurt me so much, and I know I can find someone a lot more suited to me, but the other part of me misses what we had, who he used to be, and I feel like we could be together again someday because we were so good together. You don't just forget and move on from true love so fast... I still don't get how he has. As my mom said, "he's an immature shmuck!" Ha. It's his loss I guess. We've been in NC, some LC for about 4 weeks, and I'm not planning on talking to him for a very long time, (not even Christmas or New Years), unless he comes back to me and wants to start over in a new relationship (in the letter I gave him, I told him to contact me if he wants to try again, if not then we'll continue going our separate ways.) I know I'm fine without him but I can still see a potential future for us. Time will tell I guess. I'm just glad I've gotten used to him not being around, I don't feel anxious or desperate anymore, just sad sometimes. It really does get easier guys Just a rant, thanks for reading Edited December 19, 2010 by slamma19
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