wish it was a dream Posted December 17, 2010 Posted December 17, 2010 It's been a little over a month now since he broke up with me. We haven't talked at all during this time. We are not friends on facebook, all communication has been cut. Two days ago he went on youtube and made a video and tagged me in the video. It is a very evil video. He calls me a crazy B****, F*** YOU, and etc. He places all the blame on me and talks of how he is going to find someone who actually loves him back. He clearly thinks he is the victim in all of this. I thought he moved on and forgot about me, obviously not. What I don't understand is how after a month he is still so angry? Doesn't time take away the anger? Foolishly I wrote him a message after seeing the video, and I regret it now. I said I wish things were different and maybe we can be friends one day in the future. It was a pathetic message. He did not write me back anything. I'm still trying to get over him myself and that video was a huge step back. Not once during our 2.5 year relationship did he ever talk to me like that. He had the utmost respect for me. Just like when he did break up with me is was through a text message. This boy can't use his words at all can he? What am I supposed to make of this? Help me out
bluryy Posted December 17, 2010 Posted December 17, 2010 Probably he was simply too nice to you during the 2.5 year relationship? But you did not cherish him? What happened in the relationship? It takes two hands to clap, right?
Author wish it was a dream Posted December 17, 2010 Author Posted December 17, 2010 He was really nice during the 2.5 years. He was the strong one, my rock, my everything. I never thought in a million years this would happen. Of course now I look at it, I don't think I did enough for him. I had a negative attitude because other areas of my life were lacking. I took a lot of my anger out on him because I thought he would always be there. I took him for granted. Now he is just so angry and a huge part of my life is gone.......vanished. He was so against giving me a second chance he said he made up his mind and won't change it. We were each other's firsts in everything. O gosh I'm just rambling. I think there is nothing I can say or do to change anything. How do you get over your first love when you blame yourself?
bluryy Posted December 17, 2010 Posted December 17, 2010 My God. You sound like how my ex-girlfriend is going to feel after breaking up for sometime. Well, i think the only thing you should do now, is to prove to him that you've changed. You will never abused him anymore, be it emotionally or physically or verbally. You two have to let go of each other, and moved on from the first relationship. Then start a healthy new one all over again.
Author wish it was a dream Posted December 17, 2010 Author Posted December 17, 2010 This was my very first relationship so it was a big learning experience for me. I look back at the things I did and I cringe. He never spoke up and said he was hurt or anything like that. But according to this video he was angry all along and pretended like he was fine. So there was a severe lack of communication on his end. So we both made mistakes. Rather than growing from them together and learning together he decided to end it all. It's so disappointing.
bluryy Posted December 17, 2010 Posted December 17, 2010 Remember those times when he pleaded and beg for you to stay? Crying, Tearing? Remember how you turned away from him despite him pleading you to stay? All this memories stays vivid, arent it? You cant blame him from moving on. He wanted to learn and grow together with you, but what did you do to him? Ask yourself. Well, i think the best thing to do is for you to show him that you're worthy of him. Show him that you will no longer go back to your older days.
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