LonelyEevee Posted December 16, 2010 Posted December 16, 2010 Hi I just want to share my lonely experience with regards to love. I had a girl whom I was dating for almost two years and I could say we are compatible and that everything was picture perfect even though sometimes we have our petty fights but after we would talk and say our apologies. Then came 2010, November, the most painful month for me to remember. We argued over something that caught my doubts, it was that she was calling someone "bhie" through text messaging twice! I confronted her and she told me that she was just sweet to her friends. So I told her keep away from the person she was saying, she did yet what I didn't know is that when I turned my back she was still communicating with this guy. Then a few days after I told her that I am feeling something strange about her. It's as if she has changed. She just told me that she was just lying low because of our now constant arguments yet I apologized and asked her to go out and have a date on our 23rd monthsary. Everything was A-OK during the next succeeding days and then the unexpected came. She connived with this friend of his to pose for a picture and posted it on the guy's facebook account which I saw and I was furiously mad and asked her what the heck was that about? While on the phone she seems to be crying and saying "love please don't cry" then later she said that she is breaking up with me. The next day we formally broke up and then the unexpected happened: The guy I am talking about earlier became his boyfriend! right after our break-up. I know I was the typical ex whom will blurt out with anger but I just told her calmly it's alright if you left me and became her boyfriend I understand and I'll be waiting. The next scene was she was asking me to be friends with her to which I declined at first but thought off and agreed. We became friends alright and then she started reminiscing about our past which got me delighted at first she was saying that those were the times that she was so happy... because those were the times that she was with me. Well afterwards she told my friend that "yes I love my current boyfriend right now but I dont know he(ME) has a place in my heart" and "Yes I did replace him that quick! but I dont know what do I really feel, it's as if I dont know what true love is" My friend told me this and said that maybe I should stay away, and yes I did tell her to which she replied "I will agree with what you want even though it's hard for me. And told her that we cannot be friends. She gave me these cryptic messages that, if it would be alright for you to answer (and please do) like "maybe I'll realize that I made a mistake leaving you" "If only time could give me another chance to be with you even though it will take years, I'll be happy about that" and "I don't want to be hurt and hurt again but maybe if i made a wrong decision I pray that I'd be given another chance to be with you again" same as "If I made the wrong decision, from turning my back on you, our relationship, you know what? I just want to be with you again" she also said that those things she said weren't lies at all then she told me that form the day I severed contact with her she remembered me. and said that she realized her mistakes from what is happening to her life right now So I thought the no contact was good and that I was on the right track. Then she hits me suddenly with "I just said those things so that we could be friends, there's no other meaning with everything that I said"(She was talking about the ones quoted above) "yes I want to be with you but not as a boyfriend" and "what? no I am not going to return to you" "Im sorry if that's how you understood my messages, you just misinterpreted what I said, I said those things so that we could be friends, sorry if I gave you false hopes I just want to be friends with you" And from there I snapped and told her "how could you play with my emotions? It's as if I don't know who you are now. you became a user and I feel so used. maybe it's really right if we would forget each other and erase one another's memories." she asked for forgiveness to which I replied no and she asked why and I told her you don't deserve forgiveness just yet, maybe if one day you resent being such a demented total former shell of yourself maybe i'll think twice in forgiving you. I felt like a total jerk who got used and abused that I really really want to snap everything at her but held back at least some. She still asked for forgiveness but I insisted on telling her my sincerest NO There that was my miserable, heartbroken story that I wanted to share with you guys in this forum... I hope that you post your opinions and advices from my very long love tragedy thank you:D:bunny:
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