Tressugar Posted December 15, 2010 Posted December 15, 2010 Good morning! After several futile attempts in trying to reach you after you had once again promised me that you were going to contact me before going to bed once again (although I shouldn't be) you disappoint-I am done. Not only you chose to turn off your phone, you didn't call me. I am done with this emotional roller coaster with you. I am done with this scenario, done with you, done with the lies, done with the manipulation, done with the alcoholism, done with being shut out, done with being shut down, done with not being heard, done with the lack of respect, done with the empty promises, done with waiting, done with being the one who gets the short end of the stick. I had enough and want no more. I've been by your side waiting for you to come around. I've waited for you while you were in rehab and waited for you when you had said that you were coming after rehab, Thanksgiving and my birthday. All ending with the same results-you never show. And again last night told me that you were on your way coming to see me; the same results occurred-nothing. You know, you sure have a strange way of showing me that you care and that I'm number one in your book. If this is what it feels like to be cared by you then leave me be. I'm tired of hurting behind your words. I realize that you are only capable of stringing me along with empty words. I had enough with you pushing me away with your actions and your words. It hurts, but I will be okay. I am implementing a 'no contact' with you effective immediately. I have to for me. I am the only one who really cares about me in this sick twisted dynamic of ours. I am doing this for my sanity, for self love, for self preservation and for strength. I gotta get away from you and remove myself from your mental grasp. I want a normal healthy loving relationship where I can depend on someone, where there's trust and safety, stability, where I don't have to be a continuous caregiver to someone who doesn't love themselves. I want a whole person; not bits of fragmented of a distorted facade. I DESERVE BETTER!!!! And you are not the person for me. Find another victim to play your game. In fact I know that you've already found someone for now. I wish the best to the both of you. Tell her to stop texting me because I don't want or need you. Don't have anybody contact me on the behalf of you. It's getting old and tiresome. And lastly move on; don't contact me. I'm not mad at you and only wish the best for you in your recovery and good health. Yes we did have good times and I will not forget them or you. I'm not looking back as it only hinders me and you shouldn't either.
Sevenscars Posted December 15, 2010 Posted December 15, 2010 Thank you for your inspiring post Tressugar, it helps give others strength to see someone like you cope the way you do.
Author Tressugar Posted December 15, 2010 Author Posted December 15, 2010 Thanks Seven...for reading.
Author Tressugar Posted March 24, 2013 Author Posted March 24, 2013 The last time I was on here was back in 2010. I posted something this morning, but I came across and read some of my old posts. Somethings never change. The same alcoholic dude is still hounding to see me. Three years later, I have grown up, moved on and have gotten married. I am so glad I did not get caught up with this man. He is still the same person as 3 years ago and still promising to come out to see me. To those young ladies who believe that the man can change, hear my testimony and know that most men don't change. Don't waste your pretty years of your life on waiting for men to change. There's too many eligible and good men out there that will meet you at where your life is currently. 1
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