Squeakyclean Posted December 15, 2010 Posted December 15, 2010 Well it all started on 1-16-09 i met the girl of my dream's the one I fell for, it did not take long for me to fall head over heal's for her, but... about two month's into our relationship she cheated for the first time, but I decided to give her the first... "second chance" a few months later i found out she cheated on me again, and yet again gave her a "second chance" then about 9 month's in the relationship she inform's me that she also cheated on me with two girl's and yet again the past repeated and i gave her another "second chance" about a year and three month's into the relationship the past was hiting me hard and i decided to go on a "break" where i ended up fooling around with another girl to desperately get the past out of my head but the break ended up with her dateing another guy after crying night's and night's because of what I did, and i knew i want her back. So I got her back and she was still hung up on the situation before thank's giveing this year she cheated on me again with the same girl i was "fooling around" with and i gave her yet again another "second chance". I thought that asking her to marry me would get rid of all our problems and fully commit our selves to eatchother so I asked her to marry me the day before thank's giveing and she said yes! but two day's ago she informed me that she has cheated on me with two more guys and two girl's since we have been engaged and promises from now on she will be SO faithful etc etc etc so I gave her another chance, but in the back of my mind I feel like i have no self esteem and something's wrong with me like crazy, everytime we got in major fight's i have thought about suicide and know that i would prolly do it if we ever broke up... but is staying with her wrong because im already hearing rumor's that she deny's. Please help litterally in dieing need -squeakyclean
fiat500 Posted December 15, 2010 Posted December 15, 2010 what the hell, dude. You bring on the pain yourself. Several second chances? Are you for real? A person only gets one SECOND chance. There is nothing after that. There is a wise saying: FOOL ME ONCE, SHAME ON YOU. FOOL ME TWICE, SHAME ON ME. This is your own doing. Get rid of her. Or just deal with the fact that she will cheat on you because she doesn't care about you. Suicide? REALLY? Sorry to sound cruel, but if you're going to stay with someone THAT DOESN'T CARE ABOUT YOU then expect to be treated like dirt and FEEL like dirt.
Author Squeakyclean Posted December 15, 2010 Author Posted December 15, 2010 what the hell, dude. You bring on the pain yourself. Several second chances? Are you for real? A person only gets one SECOND chance. There is nothing after that. There is a wise saying: FOOL ME ONCE, SHAME ON YOU. FOOL ME TWICE, SHAME ON ME. This is your own doing. Get rid of her. Or just deal with the fact that she will cheat on you because she doesn't care about you. Suicide? REALLY? Sorry to sound cruel, but if you're going to stay with someone THAT DOESN'T CARE ABOUT YOU then expect to be treated like dirt and FEEL like dirt. I cant get over her tho she is the most beautiful girl I have ever seen in my life and sex is a factor and unless i become a porn star no girl has sex like her but everything about her is amazeing exept her loyalty, I wish i could do what most people would in my situation but yet again I have relised lately i have no self esteem.
Author Squeakyclean Posted December 15, 2010 Author Posted December 15, 2010 And how do I build my self esteem? i mean I litterally feel like this relationship is slowly makeing me go insain.
TaraMaiden Posted December 15, 2010 Posted December 15, 2010 First - get out of the relationship. Second - go No Contact. Third - realise that the engineer of this whole mess, is you. Your choices, your decisions, your consequences. Stop what you're doing, (which isn't working) and start something that does. Fourth - see a counsellor.
dk.bnz.chi Posted December 15, 2010 Posted December 15, 2010 fifth- go and have sex with a porn star. you can get them on escort sites when they visit your town your just blinded by her beauty when you should see her inner ugliness
vandelay Posted December 15, 2010 Posted December 15, 2010 everything about her is amazeing exept her loyalty Well shouldn't that be one of the most important things? Sounds like this girl is a slut and using sex in very unhealthy ways. Sorry, I know you love her, but its true. Obviously she is not going to change anytime soon. You have taught her that she can sleep around with whoever she wants and you will always take her back. And if you are truly feeling suicidal, please call a helpline. It shouldn't be too hard to find a number online. There are people on the other end of that line who understand what you are going through and are there to listen.
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