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[jacka207]

Ok so here it goes let me start off by saying before i started dating this girl i just got out of a 3 year relationship so i was single for about a year. Well i met this girl and we instantly hit it off went on like 12-16 dates in a month span then she asked if i wanted to be her b/f i said yes because things were going so great. Fast foward to this past week i start to feel weird around her a lot because she isn't so talkative anymore and is always on my iphone pretending to play tetris but thats cool i have nothing to hide. so we go out and she is the type of person who is not used to introducing new people to her friends which is ok i thought but it pissed me off because it feels weird to be standing there and strangers wondering who i am. So i tell her wtf and so she introduces me as her boyfriend i continue to get these bad feelings like something isn't right so i start being insecure and saying stupid **** about this other friend of mine who is a girl because at this point i am being totally ignored. so we leave all mad at eachother im drunk and i feel bad because of the stuff i said and the way i acted i basically made a mistake.

 

so we fall asleep which usually we have sex i forgot my condoms so that didn't happen and i had to work early anyway so we both get up and i think to myself shes always on my phone let me see hers so i open it and a text is on it saying about a confusion she is having with another me/other guy. so i ask her what is up i don't tell her i snooped which i still feel bad about and she swears there is no one else and she hasn't lied to me in the time we were dating and the 2 months weve been together. so the weekend comes i have to work she goes out which is something we both enjoy we are both very social people, and lately if i don't text/call she doesn't even try or iniaite anything. so i am confused because she sends me all these messages to my facebook inbox about how i am the best thing to ever happen to her and she is distracted only by fear of commitment, growing up, life shes 27 im 27. So I finally had enough of feeling like she was pushing me away or refusing to talk with me.

 

So I tell her what is the problem you seem so distant and your actually pushing me away with the way you are acting. She then goes on to tell you she doesn't now what she wants in life and is distracted by everything so i ask her maybe we should either try to turn are wrongs into rights and try to make things like they were and she told me the way i acted on weds night hurt her and she doesn't know if she can recover from that. I say i understand if we must break up because of the mistakes i made then so be it but she tells me no no no i don't want this to end give me the rest of this month to see if i can recover its going to be a distant one she says but i still want to talk with you. I knew this holiday month was going to be that way anyway with all the family stuff she has going on so i agree to this trial she wants to do but now i find myself confused. Do most situations like this usually end up doomed and i asked her to give me just one night before she decides what she wants to let me show her how i really am, mind you i was distracted and under a lot of stress also but i accept my mistakes and hope to fix what we have.

 

So since she is the one who wanted this should I have NC with her at all and let her miss me or should i act like the person i was before i let myself fall and make mistakes ?

[jacka207]

sorry i lose track of my lines when typing on my iphone not home yet so sorry