flickster42490 Posted December 13, 2010 Posted December 13, 2010 Forgive me if this post may seem somewhat trivial and long, but I really need to get this off my chest and (hopefully) receive some advice…. I want to talk about my first real crush. I met her when I was in 8th grade when we both attended a youth orchestra event. It was a 3 day 3 night thing at a hotel, and we really hit it off. I figured she really liked me, and later, her friends told me as much too. Man…she really was the most beautiful girl I’d ever seen. Anyways, we didn’t go to the same school and she lived in the next town over about 30min away. I never got the chance to “go out” (whatever that meant in middle school. Lol) with her, thanks to my really strict parents. We exchanged emails for a couple of months until almost a year later, always insinuating affection, we saw each other at another event. I was so shocked at the coincidence that I was literally speechless. I avoided her like the plague for some reason and blamed her for not talking to me in an email later. awkward...Lol. After that horrific incident (haha) we pretty much stopped contact. Yup, I never told her how I felt about her although I told her friends…(ahh, the idiocy of an infatuated kid who knew nothing about relationships) I guess I wanted to keep being her friend until I was finally allowed to go out....Since then, I’ve only had 2 longterm relationships. Now, I’m in a wonderful relationship (4+ years) with a girl whom I promised to marry when I get out of college in a couple years (I’m 20). The problem is, I still dream and think about her once in a while and it really gets me down to think what might have been. Not only did she turn out smart (Wharton School), she’s stunningly gorgeous, and has a great, bubbly personality (from what I remember). Do you guys think I’m just out of my mind to want to contact her again (although I don’t know if she even remembers me or ever thought about me) and even consider throwing away a relationship I’ve been building for 4+ years? Is this grass is greener syndrome? If not, how do you think I should go about contacting her again? (Apparently, she just got out of a long-term relationship, according to my friend) Dam. I usually think about her for a day and move on after I have a dream of what could have been, but it’s been bugging me for more than a week now…Help!!! Oh God, I hope she’s not a member on this forum...lol.
Feelin Frisky Posted December 13, 2010 Posted December 13, 2010 Sorry to have to say this but I think you are crazy to think about contacting you're puppy love from middle school. You both have moved way on. If she's going to Wharton, she's on a high career track too. If you do try to contact her anyway, I suggest that you hold your expectations low and don't act like someone on a manic high in your communique.
Author flickster42490 Posted December 13, 2010 Author Posted December 13, 2010 Yeah, I think you maybe right about me being crazy...lol. I guess we all have a special place in our hearts for our first crush. And I think I lost that opportunity to regain communication with her a few years back when I received a friend request from her on facebook, but my gf didn't want me to accept...Was it wrong of her to do so?
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