flyleaf Posted December 11, 2010 Posted December 11, 2010 okay.. well i have a crush on this guy.. i guess i know a tiny bit about him with all the typical stalking we all do (yes you do it too admit it) i prefer the term investigating..to see if this guy was actually worth obsessing over..and it turns out..he pretty much fit my mental picture of my 'dream' guy.. you know when your friends tell you to describe the perfect guy and you list certain characteristics laughing at the fact that someone like him probably wouldnt exist? well.. this guy was pretty much THE GUY. apart from his personality (which i heard was quite good..i mean hes a nice guy and all that) so.. i started liking him and i use to stare at him all the time.. and he used to look as well.. didnt avoid my looks or anything..he sat with couple of girlfriends..and as the year went on..i think they actually figured out by my constant glances that i actually had a thing for him.. the girls would give me looks..smirks from across the room.. sometimes he would smile directly at me while talking with the girls.. so we had this weird eyecontact established which seemed pretty good i mean he knew i existed right? my friends would look and sometimes say that he looked at me 3 times well my friends would catch him looking at me..and i never really saw him looking at me except at the end of class he would just look in my direction or directly at me and smile.. so..then the stupid crazeness began after i saw him hangout at a place and i started hanging there with my friends too..he just seemed really awkward weird..nervous..didnt care attitude..pokerface..all that.. so i guessed he was SHY. but come on he wasnt shy at all.. he had so many girls as his friends..and he seemed really confident.. so he would just coem to his hangout place SEE that i was there..(with my friends and he was alone) do his hanging out and just leave..so i was like okay..well he clearly doesnt like me.. Then oneday something crazy happened with one friend and i was forced to talk to him for a second to clarify something..and i did.. i asked him if i could talk to him and he said yes without hesitation..so that was a good sign right? i mean come on we were complete strangers who only knew eachothers existence through the eyecontact.. i stupidly thought that meant something and he was incredibly nice..i ran out of things to ask after i aske what i had to and ended the conversation and left..during the conversation i kept looking down..my eyes were scanning everything but him obviously because i was nervous..he was doing the same thing (unless he was looking at me when i was looking away i cant be sure) He did so many things that made me think he maybe felt something too..but then he did other things that made me think okay maybe not..sometimes he would completely ignore me..and all that.. After a week of stupidly overanalyzing the situation i thought he didnt like me..so i started ignoring him after that...didnt say hi or anything..which im sure seemed very snobby and rude and im not usually like that. Then a week passed..and he disappeared when school ended. And i havnt been able to stop thinking of what all the eyecontact was.. was it him laughing at the fact i liked him? what was with the girls laughing at me? i keep thinking it was probably nothing at all..and it was just guys being guys with the looks and nothings more..or him responding to my glances..or him just secretly laughing at me which pisses me off and repisses me whenever i think about the fact he could be laughing at me..although i dont see him intentionally doing it..he seems like a nice enough person..so ive heard..and i mean if he did like me he could have talked to me right? he didnt. he made no effort in that way..he just did his own thing at school..laid back..a chill kinda guy..and we dont have any common friends either..so its even harder.. And i dont want to keep liking someone thinking there is some hope..when there clearly isnt? and i definetly do not want to keep going like this..and i might even leave the country to study somewhere else..and one thing thats holding me back is this wierd stranger..this is incredibly stupid and weird..i feel like an idiot for getting this attached to someone i hardly even spoke to. SO what the hell should i do?
Confusedalways Posted December 11, 2010 Posted December 11, 2010 haha I have been in your shoes- the over analyzing, etc. It's really not healthy. You saw things like girls laughing that were most likely nothing. So you have absolutely nothing to lose at this point by asking him out. If you don't see him- shoot him a fb message and ask him out. He either accepts or doesn't but its MUCH better than wondering.
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