Dodgers27 Posted December 10, 2010 Posted December 10, 2010 And I was fine for a long time after that, but now in the last month or so, I've been thinking about her more and more. My 21st birthday is in 2 days, and I never thought I'd care so little about it, and it's because I miss her. The pain isn't like it was before, because I'm not heartbroken anymore over her, I just miss talking to her and even just hanging out with her. I'm not saying I wish I was her friend, because I know I wouldn't want to just be friends, but I do know that talking to her would make me happier than anything right now. She broke up with me a week or so after Valentines Day, and we fought a bit and stopped talking till late April, at which point we started hanging out again and acting like we were dating without anything physical. It was like that for another 2 or 3 months, and then she just started getting distant like she was before the breakup, at which point I knew I had to stop talking to her or I would just be driving myself insane. That's when I finally deleted her from Facebook and never looked at her FB or twitter again. It really hurts in certain ways because we loved so many of the same things, and seeing movies that we talked about seeing a year ago, and watching shows that we watched together just makes me think about all the good times with her and it just sucks. When I went to see Harry Potter a few weeks ago one of the things I was just thinking of the whole time was that I did this with her last year for the 6th movie, and we had already made the plans to see the 7th together...and that obviously didn't happen. Just little things like that. I have debated many times whether or not I should text her to see how she is doing, but the reasons I have come up with not to are just too strong for now: The biggest might just be if I do and I get back something saying "who is this?" I think that would really hurt, even though she has no reason to have my number in her phone anymore. *sigh* I guess the reason why I came back here to post this is just to vent about it, otherwise I might actually text her and I know it wouldn't end well. Can't wait to celebrate my 21st birthday...likely thinking about her and being sad about it. Oh well, life goes on.
PegNosePete Posted December 10, 2010 Posted December 10, 2010 You are right, it wouldn't end well if you text her. It never does. Don't do it. Just stick to NC and move on.
strangeways Posted December 10, 2010 Posted December 10, 2010 You are right, it wouldn't end well if you text her. It never does. Don't do it. Just stick to NC and move on. ^^^^ What Peg said.
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