Its.not.too.late Posted December 8, 2010 Posted December 8, 2010 To all on Loveshack, this is my final post for the time being. You all may know the situation and this is the conclusion. To those who have advised and listened, thank you all. For those unaware, it all can be referenced by my threads. Ive learned so much, but but now I'm having to cope a separation filled with confusion and heartache. This is it... Shoshanna and I have been together from February 17th, 2009 until November 1st, this year. The reasons why she left are still unclear, but on the 23rd she chose to have me back. We dated for the next 12 days. When she left me for the first time, it was because of a guy's charm and thought provoking ideas in which he filled her head. She fell for the peer pressure. This past Friday, she and I have a wonderful night. She in witness of her closest friends expresses her greatest sorrow for leaving me, her upmost dedication to me henceforth, and that she would do anything for the sake of our love. I had her back!! Well Saturday was another story. It started out to be another great day with the women I love. We saw Due Date and had a little dinner. We did everything she wanted. The night was great. That is until she was back at Job Corps. She told me she was going to get back her iPhone from the guy she left me for. Well later that night, I receive that call. She doesn't know what she wants, who she wants. She never wanted him to break up with her. She wants to be single and focus on her schooling. (mind you this is after she wanted me to pick up my engagement plans and ring shop with and for her) Joseph (the ******* she leaves me for) texts me claiming she had sex with a friend in Cali and right before she broke up with me, had "fooled around" with him. Now here she is happy to be without me, all that matters is her Job Corps life, this Joe guy and being free from the stress and drama of a relationship. I guess it's hard to swallow that the place I got her to better her life has destroyed not only the loving, happy giving committed girl I've known for so long, but sacrificed the establishment we shared together for nearly 2 years. I'll still be waiting for her return. I just can't throw so much away. I just hope whatever choice she makes brings her happiness and completion. Who knows, maybe once she completes Job Corps in six months or if she sees the bigger picture, all hope won't be completely lost. - Brandon
IfiKnewThen Posted December 8, 2010 Posted December 8, 2010 Sorry for the roller coaster ride. Fickled people are just that...fickled. So darn unpredictable. When something goes awry in a relationship, it leaves such a vulnerable spot... original feelings and attraction get displaced. We try hard to get our partner to get attracted to us again. Its so exhausting. There's hope and promise...that crash and burn...because their feelings and attraction for us are no longer solid. its all about keeping the attraction going...and when there is someone in the way...that makes it so much harder. i am sad for all of us. if i had one wish this christmas..besides hope and mercy and cures for the sick...would be that all broken hearts would get fixed. its a serious condition. i dont blame you for not wanting to post. most of the time for me now..its hard just to get out of the bed in the morning. this is the saddest christmas for me. and its not just christmas. everyday. sorry so depressed here from more discovered rejection today. when we put ourselves out there to try to heal the relationship or get a second chance...it's a big risk factor for more hurt and more rejection and prolonged agony. but because theres always hope and we want a second /third/whatever chance......we forge on trying in case theres that chance to get back the person and love we had. but the flip side is if we dont...i think we get doubly hurt. at least thats how i feel now. sorry if theres typos. i am burnt out from grief.
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