thinkgal Posted December 7, 2010 Posted December 7, 2010 I got mixed feelings...sometimes I'm ok, sometimes I'm just plain sad, I cry sometimes but is ok I mean I really had strong feelings for him, he was my luv, but things changed and so did he starting last month. I remember whe I saw him last week I asked if he felt different and didn't want to be with me anymore. He said if I didnr want to I wouldn't be here and how it's just that he's been busy. But I know it takes just a couple of seconds to call or text so since I would do it and he would respond. It just hit me one day of how he just doesn't care and I must not be important to him. He used to say not to take it personally but when someoen cares they find time for you and call.....so I was just thinking various stuff of before including his flaws, sometimes I wonder damm and he doesn't think of me one bit how much of a coward he must be for not been honest and saying his stuff or try to end it...it always seemed like it was up to me, like he left it up to me to decide, now what does that say??? It hurts but with time I know I will heal...it just sucks sometimes...day 3...well lets see how it goes.
Author thinkgal Posted December 10, 2010 Author Posted December 10, 2010 on that same day later in the afternoon, I went out with 2 of my friends. Before going out I took sum nice pics and posted them on my fb while waiting for them to call me to meet them up since da place was close to where I live. Sooo I had sum drinks and all well when I get tempted and look at his fb account and I noticed that an hour after posting my pics he writes in his wall that he believes is time for him to fly...so with da drink on me I'm thinking maybe it means he really is getting away from me soo I text one of my friends and she writes to me to go ahead and text him to seee if I get a reply...so dumb me does that...i text him saying that sumthing must be wrong cuz if I don't write to him he doesn't and that I guess he just doesn't think of me. So now I'm like f%%k now I'm gonna be wondering if he texts back or not,which he did and he said that is not true cuz he thought of me a lot on that day. So I text back that if he did he should have called or text me and that maybe there's something holding him back??. So then I just stay with my friends and like 2 hours later I go back home. The phone rings and it's him, he tells me he's been busy and I say well I an understand the decrease of spending time with you but 3 days of no call or nothing and then I say you write in ur fb so you had time, you couldve done to me also. He says something about his phone..anyways next day in morning he calls again on his way to work, again apologizes and etc. So my head keeps wondering about the flying thing he wrote on his fb and how it just seems strange da distance, so I text him that night and ask him if he wants to be with me. He asks me why I would ask that, I then say that it's cuz of da distance lately and I feel him different and I just felt like I didn't matter much to him, then I ask about da fb and he says that I'm just reading into stuff too much and that it was a line from a song. I then say well 3 days of nc does not make me feel wanted and he says is not intentional and that he's sorry for that. I just write that he has to show he cares more cuz actions speak louder than words, then I say goodnite and he tells me gd nite love. So thursday morning I don't text or nothing so he would I mean I already explained how I felt . But later I notice on his wall it said "nobody will ever let you know, when you ask the reasons why" sooo I got confused and thought was that for me??? But I noticed from other ppl commenting that it is from a song too but I just can't keep wondering if he was trying to tell me sumthing...i had the urge to call but I thought about it and held back...now I didn't call him or text him da whole day and he didn't either ...sooo is he playing here or what..do you think he is afraid of answering my question or letting go?? Or wut??...weekend is right around da corner and I decided to stay no contact and see if he does if not oh well @ least I tried to tell him, now the hard part wut to do if he calls...im not onna be waiting if lets say a week passes and be with him like nothing....ughh men...sorry I meant sum ppl,confuse me
Author thinkgal Posted December 10, 2010 Author Posted December 10, 2010 ugh,, Im feeling the urge to call him. I know, I know I shouldnt. It's hard. I feel he doesnt care but WHY does he tell me otherwise??...oh and I noticed I misspelled on the top, it should say and now is back today 2. Cuz is the weekend, I miss him soo much and I wish things were back to how they were. I know, it will get better right.
Leandro Posted December 10, 2010 Posted December 10, 2010 ugh,, Im feeling the urge to call him. I know, I know I shouldnt. It's hard. I feel he doesnt care but WHY does he tell me otherwise??...oh and I noticed I misspelled on the top, it should say and now is back today 2. Cuz is the weekend, I miss him soo much and I wish things were back to how they were. I know, it will get better right. Yes, things will get better. But please don't break NC. Nothing good will come from it.
J0N Posted December 10, 2010 Posted December 10, 2010 I agree, breaking NC is probably as wise as hitting yourself in the head with a tennis racket. It gets better every day, trust me Ive gone 7 weeks now.
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