Konfliktuk Posted December 4, 2010 Posted December 4, 2010 Andy Whitehouse 01 December at 22:22 Hey, thank you for replying, Ruth your not a bad person at all, listen, I am sorry that I vent my frustrations when you feel that way for me. Something finally clicked today, and cut a long story short, I need to get out of this rut big time. I should be enjoying things, and be the best at what I can be. the police were almost called at my house. Jude's just totally flipped. And it's not fair on me and my dad. My sister wants me to go up Scotland for a bit, and I have to take it. I'm telling you this because, no matter what happens, I still would like you in my life. , and I will always be there for you, whatever happens. Not only do I have someone special now, but also being one of your best friends, means the world to me. Sweetheart, your so kind, and your so tough, I really despise the way I have affected you in that way, We are both two people who have our finger on the pulse. If you ever need anyone to talk to, or support you, I am only a phone call away. Feelings will never fade. You will always have a special place in my heart. Maybe if we grow some more and learn some spiritual truths, things will become clear. And your right about the fighting and hurting, alone is a better option, but only temporarily. You will one day make some lucky guy very happy. But not at the minute, you need time to heal. Another thing keep on smiling. You wouldn't believe how much it means to people. I think we are both smart enough to realise, we have feelings for each other, but until we grow and become more enlightened, I think a solid foundation of friendship would be best for us both. And who knows, this life is crazy, if there ever is another chance, and we are better prepared. Nothing is out of the question. To end Sweetheart, A more enlightened and better person I will become, at the moment the door is half open. I just hope we both get through our problems and learn to communicate better. I will always have all of the time in the world for you. And wether a good friend or anything more in the future. My only wish is to see you permanently happy and living the best life you can. And it means the world to me, that you hold my poem dedicated to you, in your heart. I will always love you, I will always be there for you. Even if we aren't together. Keep in touch sweetheart. Andy xxx Ruth Thompson 02 December at 18:44 Hey, it sounds like you are happier already I am glad for you, Scotland sounds like a great opportunity for you to get away from all the **** around here for a bit and I bet it will be great to see your family. I hope Jude is ok, you say she flipped?? I'm glad you want to be friends with me, you do mean a hell of a lot to me and it's a shame if we just cut off contact. I hope you will do whatever you need to be happy again and it goes both ways, I will be just a phone call away if ever you need me. xxxx Andy Whitehouse 02 December at 20:40 Hey sweetheart, hope your ok, nah, if you would have asked me that about Jude a month ago, I would have been worried about her, now she is the reason a lot of this **** has gone about, and until she apologises to me, she can goto hell. And for me to say that you know she has really hurt me. Anyway, yeah I've been surprisingly happier, seen a lot of Luci and Wayne and Chris lately, seen them today, spent some time with my beautiful god daughter, was even holding her, Luci said your a ntural, and when are you going to be a dad, and I just laughed and said one day when i'm a bit older chick. Lol i'm getting soft but you already know that. Well i'm going up probably next Friday, coming back the Friday after, See what my sister has to say to me, and see what things are like up there. Probably better than here to be fair. But it's a 6 hour train ride! Bummer! Chris already said he would come up for a weekend and have a laugh lol. I think the reasons I was so angry or agitated was, I just got so sick of being in the house, applying for jobs and not got getting anywhere after all that application. And just staying locked away from civilization, The Crown just got boring in the end, and if others can't take criticism and totally blow it out of proportion, I guess you really find out your true friends. I know I have now. I think if Id just kept all this building up, and it got worse, i'd have probably ended up losing everyone, and either being put in jail or dead. And in the end it was just so unfair to expect you to listen to someone who was feeling sorry for themselves, when you had problems of your own to deal with. A relationship can't work if it's like that. Lol remember you said when you first met me I was mysterious, that was in a good way. DARK PRINCE! hehe. The lovable rogue. . When he returns the world will be right once again. And he will. And don't stay bloody cooped up in that room forever more you, come out and have a drink over the festive period with me. If were going to be good friends, let's make the best of it. Lol and i'm sorry if i'm writing a lot to you at the minute but, I just want to make sure your okay, and just keep you updated on things with me. It's good to open up. Anyway I hope your doing well, and I hope things aren't stressing you out! remember try and learn to switch off at times. Yeah. xxxx Ruth Thompson 02 December at 20:57 Hey Thats a shame about Jude but I'm glad you seem happy, thats all I wanted and i'm happy you have real friends, I'm sure you are a great god father and I'm sure one day you will be a great father, lol I can just see it now! Scotland will be great I bet, and 6 hours is not too bad, just sleep through it! It looks like you are sorting yourself out. Just want you to know tho, its not like I didn't want to listen to you because I did, it was more that I couldn't do anything and I honestly believe I was making it worse. And I am happy cooped up in my room, it is my safe place! But of course we can go out sometime. I don't mind you writing to me, I like that we will stay in touch and I do worry about you. Just try to enjoy yourself, its about time you did! xxxx Andy Whitehouse 02 December at 21:14 Sweet, I know you would have listened to me, but I just didn't want to drag you down when I was like that, I know we should have, being a couple but you know me, try and fix it on my own, bottle it up etc. Just the way i was. You know what I mean. And to be fair no one could have done anything, that was just the mindset i was in, the fact remains you know what i am like when i am happy and myself, apparentally the nice looking nice guy. LOL. I really admire how strong and independent you are babe, and actually I stay in my room, so I can talk hey lol. And your right it is a safe place. Bloody warm too hehe. Well to me it was. And you betcha we will. Lol and before you say don't, I do worry about you too. But I think you know that anyway, I will start to enjoy myself, and I hope you will too! vote life. have a nice day tomorrow, and be careful on them bloody roads!!! xxxx What do you reckon peeps? my minds all over the shop at the minute.
bl22 Posted December 4, 2010 Posted December 4, 2010 first - dont post full names on this site, edit that out before mods delete this.
durkadurka Posted December 4, 2010 Posted December 4, 2010 This should also go in the coping area under 'post your stuff here instead of talking to your ex'.
Author Konfliktuk Posted December 4, 2010 Author Posted December 4, 2010 Sorry about that peeps. Can't edit it, will have to wait til mod deletes it. But thank you for putting me in thee right direction.
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