Gt.ooh Posted December 3, 2010 Posted December 3, 2010 I sent my ex's mom (whom I'm quite close with) a FB msg... I told her how I've never been so disrespected and hurt, and how I'm not a person who holds grudges.. I don't care anymore if I get an email back, but I was tired of hiding how I really felt.. She's a nice lady, and understanding.. But I'm almost there guys, got some work to do still. I just wanted to be heard. And honestly it doesn't bother me what comes of it, I just feel that much better about writing it out in black and white. I haven't looked at FB for 3 days a new record for me, I have the urges, but I'm trying my best to fend them off. Anyone else released their displeasure? I was very kind and cool about it, but I laid it all out.
mgene15 Posted December 4, 2010 Posted December 4, 2010 about two weeks ago I wrote everything I wanted to tell my ex on a notepad, all my feelings, and it was about 15 pages full. I tucked the notepad away and prolly wont look at it for another year or so.... I have the urges from time to time to send my ex texts about how i feel and that i need to be heard, but I hold off, and dont send them, I write alot of my feelings down on a notepad as it helps me. I haven't looked at my ex's facebook in about a month now. and it's tough i'm not gonna lie, but all it does is just hurt me and get me feelings of anger, I've played this over in my mind probably about a thousand times, if i could say one thing it would be "It's me, the guy you fell in love with! where are you? and what'd you do with the person I fell in love with! snap out of it!!".. but I can't... and everytime i get the urge to hit her up.. i stop..I guess you could say the fight in me to try to get her back is gone...after 3 months of pain,anguish,agony.... My heart just had enough... I'm dating this new girl which is awesome, I don't no where it will lead but there came a point for me about realistically 2 weeks ago when something hit me, and I just couldnt take anymore damage... It's good to let all your thoughts and feelings out to somebody..think of what you did as closure..everything of your chest, I would be obliged to do that, but somethin in me won't let her have the satisfaction of contacting her anymore.... the fight in me stopped for her... so strange.. I could only take so much i guess is what im trying to say
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