Its too much...

[lee123]

I really can't take it anymore. I'm there NC for a month, she come back says hey thats it. Then i was back where i started, then a week later i email her asking for her back.

 

Makes you think, did she ever love me. I'm here dying slowly, while to her everythings ok, my life just seems to have stopped, and i don't feel like moving on.

 

I started no contact today, and it's too much, i don't know what else to do

[fiat500]

Hey Lee. Keep doing it. You think you're the only one dying? I'm here dying with you too. The truth is cold. Our exes are doing great while we drag ourselves around in the dirt and wallow in our pity. But it's okay. You will get through this. You're not alone.

[lee123]

You try and pretend everythings ok when its not, slowly everythings getting worse :/

 

Its around christmas everyone is happy, i don't want to ruin it for my family, but inside i'm dead, its becoming too much

[AlisaMarie]

I was just talking about that today to my friend. I am so behind at school and I can't even think about shopping or putting up my tree. Eating, sleeping, and taking care of myself have become things of the past, and I too... feel like I am dead inside. LS is about the only thing that gets me through my day. I am almost at a week of NC and honestly lee, I feel worse. My heads pounding, my stomach is in loops, and I have no motivation. I feel isolated. You are not alone but I can promise you one thing, it will all work out... it has to.

[skydiveaddict]

The first thing to do is stop contacting her. Delete her email, block her phone# and stay off fb. You will just keep suffering if you don't. I know just how you feel. the holidays are the worst time to be going thru this.

Edited December 1, 2010 by skydiveaddict

[mgene15]

I pled that game a few months ago man, Just do yourself a huge favor right now, and shut off communication. delete her from your life, I no it's easier said then done. But you will get better eventually. that's all there is to do. Your hurting yourself.