Feelings of jealously and insecurity just won't leave me...

[gabby898]

The last months I've been feeling very jealous and insecure.

I cheated on my bf, as some of you might know, and I deeply regret that, I've hated myself for it and still haven't forgiven myself for it either.

 

My feelings of jealously, I think, started after that.

They became stronger after an argument with my bf in which he mentioned another woman (who has been friends with him for 8 years) and said that she would "be with him in an instant" if he wanted and I knew that she wanted to have sex with him in the past. (but never did).

 

Also, recently I've been feeling depressed and went to a counsellor who told me I'm mildly depressed and I feel really insecure, completely worthless, I hate myself for what I did and I think my bf still flirts online...

He used to flirt a lot but he said he'd stopped when we started going out. we've had some arguments because he didnt stop immediately and he also used to play "jokes" on me to make me jealous too that were very hurtful...

 

All those things are in the past, but I can't seem to let them go and I feel awful! These thoughts of him flirting online annoy me and I'm afraid that he might still flirt and I can't help but feeling very jealous and insecure as I think that he might prefer other, more prettier girls than me...

[emz82]

like me also it seems maybe u need to build your self esteem.maybe then u will think more clearly.If he was playing childish silly games its unfair and would knock anyone.You cheating on him isnt good but you made a mistake you cant keep punishing yourself for it.Try to get more confidence in yourself and you will realise wether this relationship is trully what you want . Also try talking to him about how you feel about the flirting etc explain how you feel its worth a try x

[hoping2heal]

The last months I've been feeling very jealous and insecure.

I cheated on my bf, as some of you might know, and I deeply regret that, I've hated myself for it and still haven't forgiven myself for it either.

 

My feelings of jealously, I think, started after that.

They became stronger after an argument with my bf in which he mentioned another woman (who has been friends with him for 8 years) and said that she would "be with him in an instant" if he wanted and I knew that she wanted to have sex with him in the past. (but never did).

 

Also, recently I've been feeling depressed and went to a counsellor who told me I'm mildly depressed and I feel really insecure, completely worthless, I hate myself for what I did and I think my bf still flirts online...

He used to flirt a lot but he said he'd stopped when we started going out. we've had some arguments because he didnt stop immediately and he also used to play "jokes" on me to make me jealous too that were very hurtful...

 

All those things are in the past, but I can't seem to let them go and I feel awful! These thoughts of him flirting online annoy me and I'm afraid that he might still flirt and I can't help but feeling very jealous and insecure as I think that he might prefer other, more prettier girls than me...

 

Ia the boyfriend aware you cheated on him?

[wicar1]

The last months I've been feeling very jealous and insecure.

I cheated on my bf, as some of you might know, and I deeply regret that, I've hated myself for it and still haven't forgiven myself for it either.

 

My feelings of jealously, I think, started after that.

They became stronger after an argument with my bf in which he mentioned another woman (who has been friends with him for 8 years) and said that she would "be with him in an instant" if he wanted and I knew that she wanted to have sex with him in the past. (but never did).

 

Also, recently I've been feeling depressed and went to a counsellor who told me I'm mildly depressed and I feel really insecure, completely worthless, I hate myself for what I did and I think my bf still flirts online...

He used to flirt a lot but he said he'd stopped when we started going out. we've had some arguments because he didnt stop immediately and he also used to play "jokes" on me to make me jealous too that were very hurtful...

 

All those things are in the past, but I can't seem to let them go and I feel awful! These thoughts of him flirting online annoy me and I'm afraid that he might still flirt and I can't help but feeling very jealous and insecure as I think that he might prefer other, more prettier girls than me...

 

You cheated on him !!! It's karma hitting back. Of course you feel bad about cheating now but I think it's too late. Your relationship got shattered when you cheated on him. (btw did you tell him that you cheated?)

 

I think there is no relationship between you two. You are a cheater and your bf is no better....

[gabby898]

No, he doesn't know I cheated...

it'll only create trust issues in our relationship...

 

He's still making those jokes though...

Just today he commented on a pic on my facebook saying how horrible I look and how he'd like to get rid of me and a friend of mine, who was also in the pic, continued the joke.

I just told him it bothered me, but he keeps on trying to defend himself saying that it's just a joke and that I'm too sensitive.

 

And he knows I'm depressed and that my confidence has disappeared and that I've become insecure...

[karnak]

Your relationship is unhealthy at this time. Every relationship where you have to lie or hide things from your significant other is just a time-bomb ticking.

 

You should terminate/pause the relationship and get some help, because you're an emotional mess. Deal with your psychological issues first.

[gabby898]

Your relationship is unhealthy at this time. Every relationship where you have to lie or hide things from your significant other is just a time-bomb ticking.

 

You should terminate/pause the relationship and get some help, because you're an emotional mess. Deal with your psychological issues first.

 

I know I'm an emotional mess, I'm on a waiting list for Cognitive Behavioural Therapy...

I tried taking a break for a week. He didn't want to and was surprised that I wanted a break. It lasted for 4 days, I couldn't stand not talking to him but constantly thinking about him.